Day 25 - Update 2 - (2.10) - Tuesday 20th March 2018
Time: 1.55am on Wed 21st March 2018.
Listening to loop as I type this.
I always seem to either put off listening to the sub/loop or I always think I should get X, Y and Z done as I procrastinate alot and then listen - either way im listening now so its all good.
So today has been a little more productive than the past week for sure. I have felt more energy today and less mentally down/tension/unfocused.
Today I felt like my motivation and energy were rising up from the slump.
Sleeping alot and resting probably helped alot.
Diet is bad but waiting on personal trainer to give me my darn macros so I can plan my meals and eat better.
I havent fapped so now its 25days without any masturbation at all!
So clearly im not stonewalling!!! hurray!!!
Now I need the rest of the subs goals to kick in.
I dont feel my self esteem is rising because today I felt conscious and insecure again about my hair loss and my weight
I also thought how its only good looking guys that get the girls. When we think of celebs we dont think of the danny devitos or the bald celebs, we only ever think of the celeb effect as those celebs that had good attention in their prime.
A very good looking guy will get the girls, period!
Even bruce willis got girls when he had more hair and more of a youthful look as opposed to now, since hes older and balding.
I also remember how I heard or read somewhere that white guys are the top of the ladder as such when it came to dating hot chicks in the west. (im from the UK but bear with me and let me explain).
I think it was a Youtube vid, but anyway then possible black guys if not equal, then they are next in the line.
This is obviously due to how the media positively portray white boys/men and only recently started to involve black men more in the society etc so now both are positively portrayed.
Remember the above is based on good looking white and black men.
next spanish, latinos etc
Next in line are those from the east asian part of the world, such as chinese, japanese etc)
next are arabs and the last I think were the people from the indian subcontinent (pakistan, india, bangladesh, sri lanka etc).
The order may be wrong as I came across this a while ago.
But today it made me think and realise that if those that are not good looking as well as those that arent from the favourable white and black demographic still managed to attract and fuck HOT white, black and latino chicks in the west and all this with DMSI, then we know that DMSI works for sure!!!
Additional Edit (3am): Not felt tired after listening to loop Possibly due to lots of sleep, lots of caffeine (coke zero) or just not feeling it.
Time: 1.55am on Wed 21st March 2018.
Listening to loop as I type this.
I always seem to either put off listening to the sub/loop or I always think I should get X, Y and Z done as I procrastinate alot and then listen - either way im listening now so its all good.
So today has been a little more productive than the past week for sure. I have felt more energy today and less mentally down/tension/unfocused.
Today I felt like my motivation and energy were rising up from the slump.
Sleeping alot and resting probably helped alot.
Diet is bad but waiting on personal trainer to give me my darn macros so I can plan my meals and eat better.
I havent fapped so now its 25days without any masturbation at all!
So clearly im not stonewalling!!! hurray!!!
Now I need the rest of the subs goals to kick in.
I dont feel my self esteem is rising because today I felt conscious and insecure again about my hair loss and my weight
I also thought how its only good looking guys that get the girls. When we think of celebs we dont think of the danny devitos or the bald celebs, we only ever think of the celeb effect as those celebs that had good attention in their prime.
A very good looking guy will get the girls, period!
Even bruce willis got girls when he had more hair and more of a youthful look as opposed to now, since hes older and balding.
I also remember how I heard or read somewhere that white guys are the top of the ladder as such when it came to dating hot chicks in the west. (im from the UK but bear with me and let me explain).
I think it was a Youtube vid, but anyway then possible black guys if not equal, then they are next in the line.
This is obviously due to how the media positively portray white boys/men and only recently started to involve black men more in the society etc so now both are positively portrayed.
Remember the above is based on good looking white and black men.
next spanish, latinos etc
Next in line are those from the east asian part of the world, such as chinese, japanese etc)
next are arabs and the last I think were the people from the indian subcontinent (pakistan, india, bangladesh, sri lanka etc).
The order may be wrong as I came across this a while ago.
But today it made me think and realise that if those that are not good looking as well as those that arent from the favourable white and black demographic still managed to attract and fuck HOT white, black and latino chicks in the west and all this with DMSI, then we know that DMSI works for sure!!!
Additional Edit (3am): Not felt tired after listening to loop Possibly due to lots of sleep, lots of caffeine (coke zero) or just not feeling it.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
