Day 4 - Quick Update - (Snapchat Girl, No Fap, Porn, Procrastination, Extras)
(Snapchat Girl)
Shes been busy cleaning the damp wall shes got.
Ive tried on multiple occasions to get her to talk to me, rather than wasting time txting.
Shes had 1 reason or another not to talk.
Now her reasons were that shes literally got tired arms from all the cleaning, yet we carried on texting for about 5 or 6 text messages before I realised and thought fuck this!
So wrapped it up quick and said good night.
Shes messaged back but I wont reply till tomorrow morning or at some point.
I dont know why shes not craving to talk, or why shes reluctant to talk, but how do I go on from this?
My suspicions were that maybe just maybe from the start she sees me as just a plutonic friend, thus asking me over for pizza and whatever are safe and calm for her but of course I wanna change all this, and no idea how.
(No Fap)
Not fapped still
(Porn)
Not really watched any porn either
(Procrastination)
Super High as always when it comes to study
(Extras)
Nothing else noticed, or changed, from diet to sleep to feelings etc.
No change in temperature nothing.
No change in regards to women or attraction or them wanting me etc.
I have to be careful, in the hope of DMSI working and the bigger hope of the sub working on me and not being stonewalled by me doesnt mean I allow myself to get carried away. I dont know what is DMSI or what is placebo, what is real and what is imagined as yet.
So I have to be patient, which isnt easy when you have 1 loop a day and thus hope this is more powerful that Thor's hammer.
(Snapchat Girl)
Shes been busy cleaning the damp wall shes got.
Ive tried on multiple occasions to get her to talk to me, rather than wasting time txting.
Shes had 1 reason or another not to talk.
Now her reasons were that shes literally got tired arms from all the cleaning, yet we carried on texting for about 5 or 6 text messages before I realised and thought fuck this!
So wrapped it up quick and said good night.
Shes messaged back but I wont reply till tomorrow morning or at some point.
I dont know why shes not craving to talk, or why shes reluctant to talk, but how do I go on from this?
My suspicions were that maybe just maybe from the start she sees me as just a plutonic friend, thus asking me over for pizza and whatever are safe and calm for her but of course I wanna change all this, and no idea how.
(No Fap)
Not fapped still
(Porn)
Not really watched any porn either
(Procrastination)
Super High as always when it comes to study
(Extras)
Nothing else noticed, or changed, from diet to sleep to feelings etc.
No change in temperature nothing.
No change in regards to women or attraction or them wanting me etc.
I have to be careful, in the hope of DMSI working and the bigger hope of the sub working on me and not being stonewalled by me doesnt mean I allow myself to get carried away. I dont know what is DMSI or what is placebo, what is real and what is imagined as yet.
So I have to be patient, which isnt easy when you have 1 loop a day and thus hope this is more powerful that Thor's hammer.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
