Day 48/180 ON #1- Mon 5 July
1) As mentioned in my reply to @RTBoss above, I got more productive in the evening and this is my usual habit and style. Shannon as said that is fear thus the early in the day procrastination that then leads to action (when I have no choice left) in the evening. So this is 1 area of Fear im still struggling with. Ofcourse were only at day 48 and not even at the half way mark as yet but approx a quarter is done and im eager very eager to get these bigger fears dealt with....the ones where I will see a change in my natural behaviour.
2) Sleep was awful and a struggle and this was before I even got round to playing the sub. So I planned to go to bed 1 hour earlier than normal and had it all planned out but by the time I got to bed I was still awake and couldnt switch off even though I had taken some natural sleep aids and drank a bedtime tea.
I was also hungry so I then just gave up and went to eat and watch youtube and got into a food binge for the next 3hours. It wasnt great at all. I was slightly drowsy when I got up from the bed but not enough to push me to sleep.
After the food binge I then went to sleep and hit play on the sub. No idea what time that was but probably 3.30am.
3) Alarm started at 10.30am and for the next 1 hour alarms get ringing and getting snoozed and it was an a real struggle to get wake up. Real struggle!
4) I finally woke and as usual for the next 2-3hours was a combo of wash and eat.
5) I had made plans before my failure to sleep early for todays tasks. I havent started those however I have already done the easier more enjoyable ones such as check bank account or come on here and update my journal as im doing so procrastination and the act of doing what is important hasnt changed.
6) I did dream, I had 2 dreams. When I woke I did remember them and replayed them in my head to remember them. But now I have forgotten them all over again. Whatever those dreams were I just hope they are all helping OF do the job.
Ill bbl
1) As mentioned in my reply to @RTBoss above, I got more productive in the evening and this is my usual habit and style. Shannon as said that is fear thus the early in the day procrastination that then leads to action (when I have no choice left) in the evening. So this is 1 area of Fear im still struggling with. Ofcourse were only at day 48 and not even at the half way mark as yet but approx a quarter is done and im eager very eager to get these bigger fears dealt with....the ones where I will see a change in my natural behaviour.
2) Sleep was awful and a struggle and this was before I even got round to playing the sub. So I planned to go to bed 1 hour earlier than normal and had it all planned out but by the time I got to bed I was still awake and couldnt switch off even though I had taken some natural sleep aids and drank a bedtime tea.
I was also hungry so I then just gave up and went to eat and watch youtube and got into a food binge for the next 3hours. It wasnt great at all. I was slightly drowsy when I got up from the bed but not enough to push me to sleep.
After the food binge I then went to sleep and hit play on the sub. No idea what time that was but probably 3.30am.
3) Alarm started at 10.30am and for the next 1 hour alarms get ringing and getting snoozed and it was an a real struggle to get wake up. Real struggle!
4) I finally woke and as usual for the next 2-3hours was a combo of wash and eat.
5) I had made plans before my failure to sleep early for todays tasks. I havent started those however I have already done the easier more enjoyable ones such as check bank account or come on here and update my journal as im doing so procrastination and the act of doing what is important hasnt changed.
6) I did dream, I had 2 dreams. When I woke I did remember them and replayed them in my head to remember them. But now I have forgotten them all over again. Whatever those dreams were I just hope they are all helping OF do the job.
Ill bbl
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
