Day 36 ON - Wed 23 June - ON #1 - part 3
1) After eating felt lazy and drank tea and ate chocolate and watched a tv show.
2) went to bed not sure but think i slept around 2.30am
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Day 37 ON - Thurs 24 June - ON #2 - part 1
1) woke naturally at 10.14am and was very happy with this!!
2) Felt awake, didnt feel lazy or tired or anything. But spent 2hours sat in bed on youtube and messages etc
3) When I got up I had my wash, made breakfast ate and then back to feeling lazy again and undirected.
4) Finally felt motivated after eating and past 30mins have been a little productive. Time now 2.21pm
5) Saw that the student loans have taken money out of my account this week (monday) but only saw it now and wasnt happy as they shouldnt have. I however didnt feel more than 5 or 10% fear in terms of anxiety etc. I think normally I would have had a sudden panic perhaps.
6) When I think about going out to walk for when I start my daily walking goal eventually there is some hesitation that creeps in the form of fear so that is there however small too.
7) Time to put music on and get on with whatever I had on my todo list for today...bbl
and thoughts of moving to 3 loops a day are fleeting however I know I dont and wont do this until atleast the weekend to give my sleep a good chance to get better as that is the primary goal though ive negated this since my exam on tuesday.
I think when I do something stressful or taxing I feel I need atleast 1 maybe 2 days to recover. Its odd but even doing 1 task in the day seems to be all I can sometimes manage and feel its time to reward myself.
I think also stress and hard work causing that stress is a major fear I have since childhood that has been there at the root so lets see how that goes.
1) After eating felt lazy and drank tea and ate chocolate and watched a tv show.
2) went to bed not sure but think i slept around 2.30am
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Day 37 ON - Thurs 24 June - ON #2 - part 1
1) woke naturally at 10.14am and was very happy with this!!
2) Felt awake, didnt feel lazy or tired or anything. But spent 2hours sat in bed on youtube and messages etc
3) When I got up I had my wash, made breakfast ate and then back to feeling lazy again and undirected.
4) Finally felt motivated after eating and past 30mins have been a little productive. Time now 2.21pm
5) Saw that the student loans have taken money out of my account this week (monday) but only saw it now and wasnt happy as they shouldnt have. I however didnt feel more than 5 or 10% fear in terms of anxiety etc. I think normally I would have had a sudden panic perhaps.
6) When I think about going out to walk for when I start my daily walking goal eventually there is some hesitation that creeps in the form of fear so that is there however small too.
7) Time to put music on and get on with whatever I had on my todo list for today...bbl
and thoughts of moving to 3 loops a day are fleeting however I know I dont and wont do this until atleast the weekend to give my sleep a good chance to get better as that is the primary goal though ive negated this since my exam on tuesday.
I think when I do something stressful or taxing I feel I need atleast 1 maybe 2 days to recover. Its odd but even doing 1 task in the day seems to be all I can sometimes manage and feel its time to reward myself.
I think also stress and hard work causing that stress is a major fear I have since childhood that has been there at the root so lets see how that goes.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
