**Jake's Overcoming Fear v.3 5.75.7G Journal**

[Jake2015]

Wednesday 19th May 2021 - Day 1

I downloaded OF v3 to may laptop, to my s10 phone and also to my s7 edge old phone.

I plan to use the S7 phone to play through the speakers once im back at uni in my apartment there.

However I then just decided to play using my s7 edge phone.

As soon as I hit play which must have been around 5am or 6am UK time, I put my head on the pillow and felt so many thoughts run through my mind. Im not sure if this was placebo or the sub but I had negative thoughts, more as if I was hearing my parents shout at me when they were scared which would scare me but anyway the point is had this then fell asleep.

I woke tired, pretty tired and groggy as we say here in the UK and then realised I felt as if I needed more sleep.

During the day this tiredness went and I felt great and normal and relaxed as I usually do.

I have today felt regret and fear. Regret at how ive not done alot all my adult life and reached my potential and fear at how little life I have left and what will I do or achieve.

Other than this I then decided ok if I can ill jump on and update my journal which im now doing and i will then update my signature to state the date I started this sub.

Time is now 4.33am on Thurs 20 May, so soon enough Ill play the sub again but this time with the s10 phone, lets see if that makes a difference and it shall be 13/15 volume.

Ive quickly scanned that some are listening to this sub for the full hour with headphones so I may see if I can incorporate that into my regime when im back at uni; I cant fit that in here at home right now.

ps: I Dont know at all if this is relevant, but today I spent most of my day discussing how id love to get my dream sports car once I graduate. been discussing it with family and then if not that expensive car (with familys help ofcourse) then a cheaper more regular car for when I start work. The dream sports car is a car I want to have to then use as my babe magnet too if I can but also for my own pride.

i saw a used one in a beautiful red colour, and  yellow colour, both bright cars shouting out "hey look at me".  I showed my sister and she said im brave as it will draw lots of attention towards me. Now I didnt understand so I asked her to explain and she said well she wouldnt feel like she would want people looking at her especially during a bad hair day etc and I said well maybe its cos our personalities differ since I clearly want to make a loud statement that look at me ladies and gentleman... ive arrived.

This could be me or it could be the sub, I dont know but sharing for now.

I see. I read somewhere Shannon said that the US is approx 20%-40% louder than the masked for the same percentage volume, that's why I'm curious. But if Shannon recommend that, it's okay then.

Sure it's just 60 minutes long, that's why it's comfy to use the headphones for the maximum impact. USLM v4.2 and AoL I use speaker, I even bought new speaker for OF v3, but because it's only a loop and I don't want to exhaust my mind while asleep and then wake up tired, I choose listeing to it while doing activity.

The ASRB sure very helpful.

So about the dream car, in my opinion yes it's related to fear, you said so yourself it's for your babe magnet, why rely on outside force to be a magnet? But I don't want to judge, the journey still a long way to go.

Thanks for keeping with my journal Qiel. Yeah the Us may be louder but from phone speakers the volume suggested is 13/15 (atleast to begin with) I think for people such as myself that arent executing any subs so far but hopefully OF v3 will change everything!

Yeah its an idea ill consider when im back at uni, whether to use headphones or not. I want to use the subs but in a way as to not interfer with my day so that they can fit in and do their thing. Thats the biggest attraction for me with US and subs in the first place but lets see what I do when im back.

Yeh 3 days off of ASRB is terrific!!! 1 loop of an hour is terrific but lets see, maybe with more feedback from us all Shannon may change that later on but for now its better than how its ever been. 

I hear you maybe it is fear related the whole dream car thing or maybe not I dont know but lets see.