04-06-2011, 11:40 AM
I began stage 3 of am2011 on the day of 3/29/11. My expected end date for stage 3 is 4/29, provided I do not miss any dates by accident, which is usually the case.
I have been noticing in my internship that i have been more forward and confident. Is this a result of the sub or me simply becoming more competent over time....? I don't know, but i believe it's a combination of both. I work with parents and children, previously I did not know how to engage them but now i do thanks to the supervision i have.
When I'm in school, I'm not sure how it is... sometimes i am feeling social. I do not feel unsocial, rather it is more like i prefer to do things that i want to do. Last weekend my friends were playing a show in a houseparty and i chose not to go. Going alone into a random persons place and be in the company of random people wasn't something that i wanted to do that night and i felt entirely comfortable having a night in. I think previously i would have felt guilty for not going, despite not having company to come with to a random place, but now I am comfortable.
I have listened to the sub a total of 9 times by my count. So far what i feel (asides from the things above) is that i am more confident now than i probably have been my entire life. I used to feel like the man when i actually had a girlfriend, and even though i haven't had one for nearly 2 years since my mothers passing away, i am feeling more and more like the man each day. It's like, the first time I had a girl, my confidence went through the roof and all the girls wanted me. Now i feel like I'm building towards that unshakable confidence that i once had with each passing day of this stage.
I'm still unskilled at the whole flirting thing, and taking action but I'm pretty sure that the am2011 set will cover this for me as i continue to move through the program.
I also am feeling this type of desire or need or want. Whichever you would prefer it be called, i am feeling it. Like i said before, the flirting and taking action part is something that I haven't necessarily been working on but i think i can feel the effects of the sub on this. The sub feels like its giving me the desire/need/want for taking action and I feel it's probably a matter of time before something falls into place.
I haven't been journaling in both here or my private journal in a while. Sometimes I feel too lazy, but i have the important parts at the beginning where i have some recollection of myself before i started. During stage one, I noted to myself in my journal my feeling. I feel more alpha now, if alpha could be defined. Before I would have these needless concerns but I am finding those less and less now.
I also have easy conversations, now that I review this journal as well. The conversations i had before were full of trying to impress and not looking stupid. Although i know now i'm not trying to impress and am being myself, and looking stupid is not even a concern of mine, i still have trouble flirting. Once again, i do hope that am2011 will solve that problem for me, or at least assist me in my goals.
Anyway, that's the end of my progress that i have noticed so far. There are probably others but I can't really say them at this moment because I'm not currently aware of them. All I can say is that this is some pretty powerful stuff and it's pretty freakin awesome.
Leave comments or questions if you want. I'd be happy to answer any inquiries about anything.
I have been noticing in my internship that i have been more forward and confident. Is this a result of the sub or me simply becoming more competent over time....? I don't know, but i believe it's a combination of both. I work with parents and children, previously I did not know how to engage them but now i do thanks to the supervision i have.
When I'm in school, I'm not sure how it is... sometimes i am feeling social. I do not feel unsocial, rather it is more like i prefer to do things that i want to do. Last weekend my friends were playing a show in a houseparty and i chose not to go. Going alone into a random persons place and be in the company of random people wasn't something that i wanted to do that night and i felt entirely comfortable having a night in. I think previously i would have felt guilty for not going, despite not having company to come with to a random place, but now I am comfortable.
I have listened to the sub a total of 9 times by my count. So far what i feel (asides from the things above) is that i am more confident now than i probably have been my entire life. I used to feel like the man when i actually had a girlfriend, and even though i haven't had one for nearly 2 years since my mothers passing away, i am feeling more and more like the man each day. It's like, the first time I had a girl, my confidence went through the roof and all the girls wanted me. Now i feel like I'm building towards that unshakable confidence that i once had with each passing day of this stage.
I'm still unskilled at the whole flirting thing, and taking action but I'm pretty sure that the am2011 set will cover this for me as i continue to move through the program.
I also am feeling this type of desire or need or want. Whichever you would prefer it be called, i am feeling it. Like i said before, the flirting and taking action part is something that I haven't necessarily been working on but i think i can feel the effects of the sub on this. The sub feels like its giving me the desire/need/want for taking action and I feel it's probably a matter of time before something falls into place.
I haven't been journaling in both here or my private journal in a while. Sometimes I feel too lazy, but i have the important parts at the beginning where i have some recollection of myself before i started. During stage one, I noted to myself in my journal my feeling. I feel more alpha now, if alpha could be defined. Before I would have these needless concerns but I am finding those less and less now.
I also have easy conversations, now that I review this journal as well. The conversations i had before were full of trying to impress and not looking stupid. Although i know now i'm not trying to impress and am being myself, and looking stupid is not even a concern of mine, i still have trouble flirting. Once again, i do hope that am2011 will solve that problem for me, or at least assist me in my goals.
Anyway, that's the end of my progress that i have noticed so far. There are probably others but I can't really say them at this moment because I'm not currently aware of them. All I can say is that this is some pretty powerful stuff and it's pretty freakin awesome.
Leave comments or questions if you want. I'd be happy to answer any inquiries about anything.
