01-26-2011, 01:02 PM
Oh, last night I was pretty beat. Guess it was difficult to be clear unless you actually have some energy to think.
By off I mean I was talking to her and expecting her to reciprocate in conversation, but the problem was that I was trying to converse with her DURING class. Never a good thing I suppose. I felt off because I had some sort of expectant outcome, but I believe an alpha male does not have that belief and just goes with it.
There was also one thing I forgot to note, that my "best friend" is a *insert strong opinionated female slang word here*. We hung out pretty much all day together since we were in the same class in the morning and had no classes until night. She the definition of negativity I suppose. Her problem is that she clings onto one person, it's like having a girlfriend but not getting any. I did talk to her yesterday and said we cannot hang out as much as we do.
So, I think my friend ended up projecting a ton of... unfavorable energy towards me since that's how she is. The result probably meant that I was going to end up more beta and less alpha because she's somewhat of an alpha dog herself.
I'm rambling. Bottom line is I think she needs to go and I have to be careful of how I wean her off of me. Whenever we have school breaks (fall, winter, and spring, especially summer) we hardly get any contact and to be honest I actually prefer it that way. It's difficult to do it now since we're in the same major and graduating together.
I don't think I was eager to see change, these subs are pretty amazing on their own right on how they change me. I find myself actually seeing eye contact and smiling with people, previously I would have just shied away. I also definitely have more free-flowing non-nervous conversations with people I find attractive and do not experience any sort of "man what should I say next" sort of thing anymore. AM2011 is great.
By off I mean I was talking to her and expecting her to reciprocate in conversation, but the problem was that I was trying to converse with her DURING class. Never a good thing I suppose. I felt off because I had some sort of expectant outcome, but I believe an alpha male does not have that belief and just goes with it.
There was also one thing I forgot to note, that my "best friend" is a *insert strong opinionated female slang word here*. We hung out pretty much all day together since we were in the same class in the morning and had no classes until night. She the definition of negativity I suppose. Her problem is that she clings onto one person, it's like having a girlfriend but not getting any. I did talk to her yesterday and said we cannot hang out as much as we do.
So, I think my friend ended up projecting a ton of... unfavorable energy towards me since that's how she is. The result probably meant that I was going to end up more beta and less alpha because she's somewhat of an alpha dog herself.
I'm rambling. Bottom line is I think she needs to go and I have to be careful of how I wean her off of me. Whenever we have school breaks (fall, winter, and spring, especially summer) we hardly get any contact and to be honest I actually prefer it that way. It's difficult to do it now since we're in the same major and graduating together.
I don't think I was eager to see change, these subs are pretty amazing on their own right on how they change me. I find myself actually seeing eye contact and smiling with people, previously I would have just shied away. I also definitely have more free-flowing non-nervous conversations with people I find attractive and do not experience any sort of "man what should I say next" sort of thing anymore. AM2011 is great.
