Insights into the creation process.

[RainbowAbyss]

I agree right on with Ben. Rant:
We assimilated emotional imprints, patterns, and wounds
as children during the first 7 years of our life
This emotional imprint becomes like a blueprint for our experience of life,
our responses and emotional reactions in life, our filters for how we perceive life,
and our reoccurring issues, limitations, relationships, and assumptions in our experience of life. We think we're in control but
were usually spinning in circles, even if were shuffling the cards of our outside circumstances were still running the same on the inside. To me God is what is beyond our self identity spinning circles of conditioning. Its the part of ourselves that is beyond that and that same part connected to all life and reality. To me, God is simply reality beyond one's conditioned framework.
For anyone involved in conscious growth at some point or another it becomes fairly apparent
that there are patterns that continue to show up again and again, trigger us, make us ask "why me, why does this keep happening to me." Whether its always turning away when faced with commitment, being bullied, people consistently betraying you, self sabatoge etc.
There are three ways I like to look at why these re-occurrences happen secular, present or interconnected/ divine
1. Secular- Is very simply, as language and thinking develops the emotional imprint influences it to create a very specific filter which it continues to reinforce, rationalize, and seek evidence for in the outside world. I.E. If you break a dish while playing in the house and get screamed at.. you might on some deep level feel playing is bad, or that items are worth more than your humanity etc. Throughout life this person might continue to find that when faced with just letting loose they might have difficulty and might on some level feel no problem hurting someone's feelings to get an item they want. As time goes on one becomes increasingly identified with that pattern or condition as who they are, options in perception become increasingly diminished, those situations and circumstances which reinforce and relate to that identity continue to reoccur in perception and therefore in the experiential reality of that individual. Their behavior and emotions become increasingly reflective of that identity which makes them almost unconsciously 'look for' ways to reinforce it further. There not actually looking for it but their filters become their blinders.
2. Present-interconnected. This is similar to secular but the difference is that the emotional imprint is essentially an energetic charge. Negative reoccurring circumstances or patterns are essentially drawn to the specifics of the negative emotional charge. The fear of being bullied is literally a specific energy that the fear that leads to needing to bully is drawn to. This occurs via the divine orchestra of the present moment, and assumes the inter connected-ness of all reality/life/the world. Even deeper is the fact that any negative personal experience, even through some very obvious outside circumstance, is really just a manifestation of the repeating of the negative charge in the past.
3. Divine- We all have core soul qualities and we are put on this earth to have that soul quality fully expressed in who we are and our lives, to be it, live from it, find our purpose moment to moment from it, make relationships from that place etc. Our early wounds always become reflections of the 'darkside' of those core qualities. We start living from defense of our core natures and this defense is what creates a life that feels unfilled and off to down right hell. Even worse we think to succeed in the world we have to adopt false core qualities...so now there is a false quality, that won't really fulfill us, even if we are successful with it, and it usually won't be effective since it is layered on top of a defense of a real core quality anyway. The purpose in life becomes finding out who we really are core. All self development, growth, etc. in my opinion is in someone a process of living from our core quality, which benefits us as it does everyone around us, through whatever service our core quality leads us to as well as our energetic presence of living in the core makes it easier for others to do the same.
For example there are those whose core soul quality is all about achievement and mastery, they have everything accounted for down to a tee, they see the big picture in ways others can't and know how to guide and foster the potential in others, as well as be a pioneer in whatever field they are in, setting the bar for what can be accomplished or done. Their whole body, mind, and energy, and designed to do that and love doing it. But if there living in their defense, or there darkside, they might keep feeling nothing is ever enough, they never did good enough, they burn themselves out trying to hard, they forget about relationships or life for the sake of a goal, their super critical of themselves and others, instead of finding an integration and active rejuvenation.
Basically I think one has accomplished whatever lesson is showing up by being and knowing how to live from a the quality of being that actually fulfills one and is showing up as them living a life that feels entirely fulfilling to them when being completely self honest.