12-23-2017, 09:18 PM
I haven't been taking personal responsibility for myself. I've just been allowing myself to be carried along the path of the negative beliefs that inhabit my mind. I see how when you do this, you go on autopilot. You follow a certain path. It's like being on a train and you're going on the wrong tracks and you need to switch. And if you don't, you'll end up at the wrong destination. The current way I've been going, I see my future. I see the one where I don't challenge myself enough, I just settle for good enough out of fear, and worst of all I resign myself to the belief that living life like that is "reality".
I've noticed DMSI does force me to fight back against that part of my mind that resists everything. But I don't want a battle in my head. There has to be a better way of getting stuff aligned so all parts of my mind work towards a common goal instead of one dragging the other. Going to be really digging down deep to work on this. Work on communicating better with the parts of myself that are resisting vs treating them as the enemy that needs to be eradicated. If I've learned anything it's that fixing things at the source instead of trying to power through everything is infinitely better. I can see how my decisions are subtly shaped by the current beliefs my subconscious holds. It's good to practice awareness, but that's not the answer. That's maintenance, not a true solution. You have to figure out the source of the problem and fix it there so it effectively flows out from that part of you and aligns you with what you want in your life. I feel like I'm getting close. Prior to this my subconscious was throwing out a whole bunch of stuff to get me to avoid getting in there to make deep change. But lately it seems more receptive to talking and working through this stuff.
I've noticed DMSI does force me to fight back against that part of my mind that resists everything. But I don't want a battle in my head. There has to be a better way of getting stuff aligned so all parts of my mind work towards a common goal instead of one dragging the other. Going to be really digging down deep to work on this. Work on communicating better with the parts of myself that are resisting vs treating them as the enemy that needs to be eradicated. If I've learned anything it's that fixing things at the source instead of trying to power through everything is infinitely better. I can see how my decisions are subtly shaped by the current beliefs my subconscious holds. It's good to practice awareness, but that's not the answer. That's maintenance, not a true solution. You have to figure out the source of the problem and fix it there so it effectively flows out from that part of you and aligns you with what you want in your life. I feel like I'm getting close. Prior to this my subconscious was throwing out a whole bunch of stuff to get me to avoid getting in there to make deep change. But lately it seems more receptive to talking and working through this stuff.
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