11-27-2017, 04:04 PM
Getting more in touch with my sexual urges. What have I realized? That I've been very ashamed of being sexually attracted to women. Seems stupid right? But I never was one to engage in those conversations about who I'd like to bang, pointing out chicks with nice assess that walked by, or just blatantly stare at hot women that walked by. I never wanted to be one of those guys. Unfortunately that meant throwing away or being ashamed of any sexual urges I had. Nope I was a good guy, I wasn't going to sexually objectify women and I was determined to prove that "all men are dogs" stereotype wrong. Well I'm learning now that there's nothing wrong with those sexual urges because everyone is thinking about sex. Those urges are just like any other feeling, they exist, they are part of being human and it's stupid to try to deny them.
That being said there's this one woman I work with and when I'm in the presence of her it's like a switch gets turned on and I'm just projecting my sexual energy hard. She's married, so I don't think there's any chance of hooking up with her. But basically I don't stop it or try to avoid feeling that anymore. I just have visuals in my head of sex with her automatically. And I can feel the aura around my body too. Something that I haven't really noticed up until today. It's sort of like an airy magnetic sort of feel, weird for sure.
So seems like progress. My attitudes towards sex are definitely changing. Prior to this I thought I could only have sex with someone I loved or something of the sort, but I've realized that was just a cover up for being afraid of that raw sexual animalistic passion that is inside of me. Also a combination of feminist propaganda probably messed up my head with regards to sex. Seriously third wave feminists are the worst.
That being said there's this one woman I work with and when I'm in the presence of her it's like a switch gets turned on and I'm just projecting my sexual energy hard. She's married, so I don't think there's any chance of hooking up with her. But basically I don't stop it or try to avoid feeling that anymore. I just have visuals in my head of sex with her automatically. And I can feel the aura around my body too. Something that I haven't really noticed up until today. It's sort of like an airy magnetic sort of feel, weird for sure.
So seems like progress. My attitudes towards sex are definitely changing. Prior to this I thought I could only have sex with someone I loved or something of the sort, but I've realized that was just a cover up for being afraid of that raw sexual animalistic passion that is inside of me. Also a combination of feminist propaganda probably messed up my head with regards to sex. Seriously third wave feminists are the worst.
INFP
