11-10-2017, 02:59 PM
Nevermind, overthinking this stuff again. Emotional pain isn't necessary, long drawn out episodes of anxiety aren't necessary, in general healing should not be painful. I keep latching onto this idea that emotional pain has to be felt fully to be let go of. But I'm seeing now that emotional pain is just another reality, fueled by beliefs. If I feel like crap it's because I'm doing it to myself.
One really messed up thing I realized. A lot of the issues I'm trying to overcome are like a puzzle for me. Unfortunately the answer is facing the fear and leaving my comfort zone. But it seems my mind wasn't content with that so it ended up in an endless loop of running these same emotionally painful beliefs over and over trying to "fix" them. So I don't know if that helps Shannon or not, but it seems my problem wasn't necessarily the fear but how I dealt with it. Or maybe a bit of both.
One really messed up thing I realized. A lot of the issues I'm trying to overcome are like a puzzle for me. Unfortunately the answer is facing the fear and leaving my comfort zone. But it seems my mind wasn't content with that so it ended up in an endless loop of running these same emotionally painful beliefs over and over trying to "fix" them. So I don't know if that helps Shannon or not, but it seems my problem wasn't necessarily the fear but how I dealt with it. Or maybe a bit of both.
INFP
