11-09-2017, 05:40 PM
You know I think I've been screwing up because I keep telling myself that all this healing shouldn't be this rough. These past few days a lot has come up. I'll slip into moments of despair but tell myself it just needs to be healed and it will pass. I'm learning I really have to go through this stuff, not try to find ways to avoid it like I've been doing for most of my life. Getting in touch with how I really feel about things vs what I want to feel.
I kept getting these really bad feelings coming up and I thought it was just me resisting. But the resistance was actually my reluctance to processing these things and letting them go. Letting DMSI steer doesn't always feel good. Being too attached to things always going smoothly caused me to interfere with the execution of the script.
So nothing revolutionary here. But I guess from here on out I'm more willing to accept what DMSI presents me with instead of fighting it.
I kept getting these really bad feelings coming up and I thought it was just me resisting. But the resistance was actually my reluctance to processing these things and letting them go. Letting DMSI steer doesn't always feel good. Being too attached to things always going smoothly caused me to interfere with the execution of the script.
So nothing revolutionary here. But I guess from here on out I'm more willing to accept what DMSI presents me with instead of fighting it.
INFP
