11-07-2017, 04:49 AM
After agonizing over yet another mixdown with one of my tracks I've come to the conclusion that I overthink stuff too much and don't trust my own judgement. Where it comes from I don't know. But in a way it's very similar to ocd. I feel unsure about my decision or feel like something is "wrong" which triggers the anxiety. Then I go on a compulsive cycle of reading info or looking to the knowledge or opinions of others to get a "right" answer. The problem is there usually isn't one right answer. There aren't universal answers that guarantee certainty, unfortunately that seems to be what I look for all the damn time.
I think the perfectionism is strongly linked to my self worth. Believing my achievements and how well I do with something is a direct reflection of my worth as a person. I'd imagine that would be enough to cause me anxiety. But by not allowing myself to make mistakes and learn from them I never have the opportunity to grow. This really sucks.
I think the perfectionism is strongly linked to my self worth. Believing my achievements and how well I do with something is a direct reflection of my worth as a person. I'd imagine that would be enough to cause me anxiety. But by not allowing myself to make mistakes and learn from them I never have the opportunity to grow. This really sucks.
INFP
