10-09-2017, 05:27 PM
It's been a bit over two months now. It's all been version A, no B. Something I'm realizing is that all that pain, frustration, depression. It's just a byproduct of resisting. DMSI really does have a strong capability of removing negative emotions and beliefs if you let it. That's the problem though, being able to trust in it enough and let go and stop fighting it. It's something I've been learning lately and it's a real eye-opener because I've realized all this endless meditation and introspection on my pain and suffering was in no way letting go. It really hit me today when I realized that all this stuff I've thought I've been letting go over the years wasn't actually let go of. I just fed it by being way too caught up inside of my own head and built my identity around it.
Definitely feeling your second paragraph. Especially when I look back over how much anxiety I caused myself by basing my worth in all these external things. And for no real good reason. Just that I developed it as a habit and then I was reluctant to let it go.
Going back up to 4 loops tonight. I've started trusting in my subconscious more to make the necessary changes and improvements. With that growth I wanted to try stepping it up a bit and see how much power I can get out of DMSI. I know in the past when I brought up the loops it really pushed me outside my comfort zone and pushed my resistance up a lot. But now I feel like I might know how to stop resisting as much. The plan is to now change as fast as I possibly can and to stop taking the slow and steady path.
Definitely feeling your second paragraph. Especially when I look back over how much anxiety I caused myself by basing my worth in all these external things. And for no real good reason. Just that I developed it as a habit and then I was reluctant to let it go.
Going back up to 4 loops tonight. I've started trusting in my subconscious more to make the necessary changes and improvements. With that growth I wanted to try stepping it up a bit and see how much power I can get out of DMSI. I know in the past when I brought up the loops it really pushed me outside my comfort zone and pushed my resistance up a lot. But now I feel like I might know how to stop resisting as much. The plan is to now change as fast as I possibly can and to stop taking the slow and steady path.
INFP
