In this for the healing DMSI v3.1 A

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I'd say it took me 3 months of V3.1 to start feeling really damn good most of the time. That was my experience - lots of anxiety, wanting to stay home all the time, some depression...After that, everything just got better.

And remember, even if you're not after women, Shannon places DMSI as the most powerful healing sub. There is healing & clearing in MLS related to the goal of that program - but it may help with your music. I know I want to run it help my music, eventually. I'd be running it now if I didn't feel MHS took some priority. UD also seems good, but there's just not enough reporting going on - and Myth's experience didn't seem encouraging.

I'm just a little over 2 months right now. The thing is I'm not sure if what I need is power right now. Power is pointless if it affects me enough to the point where I don't execute the instructions or I dig up too much too fast and can't handle it. E2 went at a safe pace and I think Shannon mentioned DMSI just plows through everything regardless of pace. That second one has never worked for me and it's not just subliminals. In my life I've never been able to keep up with a lot of stimulus at once. The thing I liked about E2 is it would bring up enough to heal, wait, then do it again. DMSI being constantly on and pushing, I can't handle it. I hit a certain threshold and I shutdown. Actually this was the exact problem I had in E1 and why Shannon put the whole go at your own pace in E2.

At this point I'm just trying to find what works best for me, not what works best in theory. If E2 gets me to the same place but longer I'm ok with that. It's better than not getting there at all because it moves too fast and causes me to resist too much.

So you'd rather get there slower but with less turbulence, instead of faster but with more turbulence? Sounds like resistance

I guess. The question is, with enough pushing will I overcome that resistance? Or am I just running into a brick wall over and over. That's what's hard to tell about all this. Everyone says that we just need to fight the resistance that comes up, but to me that's not ideal because you can't tell if you're moving forward or just spinning your wheels and going nowhere. It might not be faster in the long run because I have to overcome all that resistance.

I think there's a huge misunderstanding of what resistance is sometimes on this forum. It's not something that needs to be overcome or battled with. Resistance usually comes from a very good reason that your mind has developed. Most likely fear. And if you're afraid enough of something, exposing yourself to more fear isn't always the best and can actually re-traumatize you. That's why therapists use exposure therapy, tiered gradual steps instead of throwing you into the deep end.

And who knows, maybe DMSI has guided me to go back on E2 and run that then return to DMSI when I can accept the accelerated healing. But for now I just don't think DMSI is the best route for me. Sometimes it's about accepting your limits and knowing when to change your approach instead of being stubborn about it.