09-30-2017, 05:32 AM
So I switched to hybrid for a few days to see what would happen and I'm kind of amazed at how much difference there is. A lot more resistance on hybrid and anxiety which isn't a good thing. So yeah I'm on the masked for good. 2 loops from now on and that's it too. I had my time to experiment and it didn't really yield much except more resistance from myself.
Lately I've been thinking to myself, what if what I'm trying to achieve with these subliminals isn't allowed in my life? Maybe I'm not allowed to take the shortcuts, I just have to learn the hard way. I've been healing, belief changing, whatever you want to call it for most of my life now and I find that 90% of the time it doesn't touch on the fact that life seems to be incredibly difficult for me. And I'm not saying I have a hard life, just that I have a hard time doing this whole thing. It's like for most of my life I've been the type of person to do everything wrong in order to find the solution whereas some people just fall into things working right. I don't get it. Maybe it's all resistance, who knows at this point.
Lately I've been thinking to myself, what if what I'm trying to achieve with these subliminals isn't allowed in my life? Maybe I'm not allowed to take the shortcuts, I just have to learn the hard way. I've been healing, belief changing, whatever you want to call it for most of my life now and I find that 90% of the time it doesn't touch on the fact that life seems to be incredibly difficult for me. And I'm not saying I have a hard life, just that I have a hard time doing this whole thing. It's like for most of my life I've been the type of person to do everything wrong in order to find the solution whereas some people just fall into things working right. I don't get it. Maybe it's all resistance, who knows at this point.
INFP
