In this for the healing DMSI v3.1 A

[mat422]

All you can go by is what gives you results. In my experience, results come when I'm the least comfortable with my current situation. BUT, they also come when I'm the most lazy. It's like a crazy combo. I'm uncomfortable and hate the situation I'm in, but I still lazily go through things.

If, however, I get super motivated to make massive changes, externally, things start to work against me. It's very confusing.

Same here. I think for me it's fear. I don't know, I get stuff done but it's not in any way efficient or fast. It's like crawling towards success instead of running. I have the option to get there faster, it just seems like I'm afraid of doing it.

I hear you. It's tough. Worse is when you actually decide to change, take a bunch of steps that are hailed by the experts as "the right things to do" yet get WORSE results than if you had been doing what you normally do.

It can get confusing, but you gotta keep at it because it's the only way.

Giving up won't get you where you want, so you have to find a way to make it all work out.

Yeah, I may have gotten a breakthrough today. Not really sure. Gonna go into that now.

Seems I've been way too focused on healing and clearing instead of just focusing on goals. My new plan of action is to set goals, targets, intentions, whatever you want to call them and let DMSI work in the background. No more of this trying to get DMSI to work better by digging in and pulling up old wounds or imaginary problems that may just be manifestations of resistance. I'm so capable, we all are, all we have to do is get out of our own damn way and use our minds properly to get what we want. So I'm just taking on a screw it sort of attitude. I'm gonna be confident, get what I want, figure out my life, and have plenty of sex with women and I don't need any excuses or reasons why other than I want it. If I have to fake it until it's genuine so be it. Basically I need to break the old mold, the old identity that I still perceive as more valid or true than this new one. And the best way to do that is to just start living my life like it's already true and stop waiting for proof of it before I discard the old.