In this for the healing DMSI v3.1 A

[mat422]

There's a lot to be said for living harmoniously WITH life, rather than fighting against it.

Yeah I need to learn to do that better. But how? It feels like everything I value in life is the complete inverse of how the world operates.

I'm getting the urge to up my listening and go back to hybrid on DMSI because I want to change my life. Just do a complete 180 to what I'm doing right now. At the same time I realize that type of rapid change isn't received well by my subconscious. This is killing me. The absolute need for things to be different, but not having the means to get there. I don't know what's best anymore. Keeping the pressure on my subconscious or easing up.

I was at work today listening to some music and a track came on and I got this homesick feeling in my stomach. Like I'm on the wrong path and straying too far from music. And lately I feel really dumb. I can't focus for shit and it feels like everyone else around me is more intelligent than me. It's like if I'm not interested in what I'm doing I can't focus at all.

Hate all this. But it's my responsibility to change. A lot of people complain about life, fewer actually do anything about it. I'm guilty of being one of those people. But damn if I can't figure out how to do this.