08-27-2017, 05:35 AM
So one thing that I've learned is asking why is good to get to the source of a problem. But it shouldn't turn into this inward journey to find out every little thing that might have influenced me over the years.
I'm still not fully executing dmsi and pushing to execute is pointless. My fears just don't follow any sort of rationality. It's not that they are impossible to remove or get to, but it's more like I have to learn through exposure. Only by doing things will I get that moment in my brain that goes "oh this is it? Ok no more fear". I've been avoiding that for a while now thinking there's a better way, but I don't think there is. For me, don't know about anyone else, I think in their current form these subs can only take me so far. Dmsi is experimental though, we can't forget that.
So my biggest issue fear. Indirectly overcoming it? Not so successful. Directly? A lot more. Easy? Hell no. I was diagnosed with a personality disorder a while back. Talk about a limiting belief. But I say this because what I'm facing in my life now are some of my deepest fears. Ones most people don't even think twice about but for me constantly screwed up my own life in ways that would have most people scratching their heads. The problem is when you grow up a certain way it becomes difficult to untangle who you are vs your mental issues. There's this lack of a reference point. If you develop problems later in life, but you had a time period where you were ok and well adjusted you can always look back on that as a reminder. When you don't have that you don't have a concept of what could be.
Maybe I'm wrong and had the wrong perspective on how subliminals work and was hoping too much for a magic bullet. Maybe these are lessons I have to learn and bypassing them isn't in the design so to speak. I can't really know.
I'm still not fully executing dmsi and pushing to execute is pointless. My fears just don't follow any sort of rationality. It's not that they are impossible to remove or get to, but it's more like I have to learn through exposure. Only by doing things will I get that moment in my brain that goes "oh this is it? Ok no more fear". I've been avoiding that for a while now thinking there's a better way, but I don't think there is. For me, don't know about anyone else, I think in their current form these subs can only take me so far. Dmsi is experimental though, we can't forget that.
So my biggest issue fear. Indirectly overcoming it? Not so successful. Directly? A lot more. Easy? Hell no. I was diagnosed with a personality disorder a while back. Talk about a limiting belief. But I say this because what I'm facing in my life now are some of my deepest fears. Ones most people don't even think twice about but for me constantly screwed up my own life in ways that would have most people scratching their heads. The problem is when you grow up a certain way it becomes difficult to untangle who you are vs your mental issues. There's this lack of a reference point. If you develop problems later in life, but you had a time period where you were ok and well adjusted you can always look back on that as a reminder. When you don't have that you don't have a concept of what could be.
Maybe I'm wrong and had the wrong perspective on how subliminals work and was hoping too much for a magic bullet. Maybe these are lessons I have to learn and bypassing them isn't in the design so to speak. I can't really know.
