08-17-2017, 08:27 AM
(08-16-2017, 08:26 AM)Shannon Wrote: If letting go of fear only makes it more prominent... then face the fear instead.
Very simple thing I overlooked. That's what I've started to do. Also helps I upped the loops, going to keep experimenting with raising by one every week.
So I joined Bumble. For those that don't know it's like Tinder but girls make the first move. Matched up with this cutie. Talked with her a bit and she was really into me. These days I just practice radical honesty, let the good and the bad hang out. If they don't like that then it's just a disqualifier anyway. Why be with someone you can't be yourself around? At this point I'm just putting myself out there and willing to face rejection and learn to stop putting on an image of what I want other women to see. Too much effort, too much anxiety. I blame my early years of PUA shit. Where guys did routines and clever manipulation to get a favorable outcome, but they had no substance to themselves.
Overall I still need to put myself out there more and experience stuff. I notice I sort of slip into these mentalities where I want to convince myself I don't actually want the goals of DMSI. But that's nonsense because why would I be running the program otherwise? Feels like I'm executing a lot more lately, hell prior to this I didn't even touch dating apps. So I guess I'm making some progress.
I did notice some insecurities about how I look though. I used to deal with body dysmorphia a lot. Still not totally embracing the sexually irresistible thing. Working on it, but there's definitely still some issues I need to come to terms with.
