08-16-2017, 08:14 AM
(08-15-2017, 10:32 PM)dissonance Wrote: Hey check out this page here:
http://edmprod.com/5-stages-electronic-music-producer/
Really interesting and motivating. Also, that site has tons of other good resources.
This site too: https://www.evosounds.com
Feel free to message me anytime, I'm a producer as well. So I'll be glad to share stuff with you like resources helpful sites or whatever you think you need help with. Or maybe I'll learn something from you, I don't know how far along you are
Yeah edmprod is really good. I actually bought his book for creative strategies and producing workflow. I still haven't made it through the whole thing. There's a lot of truths in there I'm still having a hard time facing. Finished the first chapter where it said to work on your biggest weakness before moving on and that's what I'm doing now. Arrangement and general songwriting is my weakest point, tension and release, all that good stuff.
Always good to have someone to bounce ideas off of for this producing stuff so I appreciate it. I've been at this for about 4 years now, but it's only been the past 2 where I started really getting into the hard work. It's been tough, but I love it so much I just keep powering through the low times.
(08-16-2017, 01:53 AM)thor2014 Wrote: Once you got your foot in the door with your first job. Things become so much easier and DMSI will i guess be the catalyst in this instance. To move you through the various hurdles you might face. I think whats important is when you get all those light bulb moments as to where exactly you want to go in your career. Just stick to it and keep on going. DMSI will make things easier for you.
(08-15-2017, 02:20 PM)mat422 Wrote: Loops up to 5 now. I laid down last night and told myself I'm done resisting. Yeah I'm afraid but I realized it's more frightening to be controlled by fear than to keep pushing and make my life better. All this emotional baggage is falling away from me and I realize now how much fear kept it in place. I'm not 100 percent there yet but I'm learning to loosen up my death grip of control and let the subconscious steer more. There's immense power there, I can feel it.
Going to be starting a new job soon in IT. Full time, getting that much needed foot in the door. DMSI is making my life come together in a way that feels like a dream. A few years ago I never would have believed I could do this. It's only 14 hr but once I have this on my resume it'll be a hell of a lot easier to land jobs in the future.
With the emotional crap being released my music is coming together more too. Feels like if I keep going I'll eventually get to where I want.
There is this fear though I'm trying to purge. It's this fear that things aren't going to get better and I'll slide back into my old ways. Like ongoing success is a fantasy and eventually my luck will run out. It's a messed up belief and I can see how it causes me anxiety. Just living a life I'm happy with, I've spent so many years miserable I don't even know what that is.
Yeah it feels like I broke that mental block that's been keeping me down and now possibilities have opened up for me. DMSI is awesome.
Noticed there's still a lot of fear in me. I keep telling myself to let it go, but it's really avoiding it. There's a difference between facing what we fear vs trying to avoid it. It's like that thing people always say try not to think of a pink elephant. And you just end up thinking of a pink elephant. Same thing with fear, the more I try to push it away or avoid it the more it controls me.
I was thinking about it some more and I've realized that learning my patterns and why I have fear does help me. I always thought it was just excess, but something in me says I need to know the root cause. Maybe it's a conscious thing, like I can't feel safe letting go until I see consciously what it is. That being said when I was worried about not getting this job I really dug in deep to find out why it would be so bad if I didn't get it. I realized it wasn't about the job. It was this idea of abandonment. Like if I failed to move up in my career or blew the interview that people around me would think less of me or see me as some big disappointment. My biggest fear seems to be that if I don't perform or live my life in a manner of utmost achievement I'm going to be isolated and nobody will love me. And since as humans we are naturally social creatures, we need a support network, I guess that threatens my very survival. It's a very raw primitive feeling that I'm going to move past, but for now I just have to truly acknowledge it because if I keep glossing over it I'll never get rid of it.
I have a lot of appeasement behaviors when interacting with others. For a large portion of my life I'd act overly nice in order to get a favorable outcome with people. It seems like whatever we try to desperately convince ourselves we are, for me it was being strong and independent, we have inner wounds that cause us to exhibit the complete opposite.
My goal now is to move away from all of it. To leave behind everything and find my own intrinsic self worth. To stop playing this game or competition to come out on top and measure myself up to other people. To find compassion for myself and others and to stop looking through everything through a distorted viewpoint of who's better than who. Maybe it's a symptom of living in the U.S. but this culture is just a breeding ground for insecurity and lack of self love for oneself.