07-12-2017, 03:35 PM
Ugh, apathy is making a comeback. I went skateboarding today which I haven't done in a while. I had some fun and it was relaxed, no pressure. But it got me thinking about life and I'm just sick of the grind. People telling me do this, do that, get this, go there, it just all gets tiresome. Thought about my music, what I wanted to do with that and possible career choices for making money. But I was just left with a feeling of screw all this, I don't care, life sucks. Fell into it hard and almost started dwelling on it. Then I realized it was just resistance again. To prevent me from moving forward and facing my fears I guess my subconscious is just making everything seem pointless. Not cool, but it's whatever. The only problem is it seriously effects my judgement and motivation is at an all time low. Especially for stuff I don't particularly have a passion for.