07-04-2017, 06:56 AM
Thanks for the input guys. Catman, I was gonna go back to E2 but when I learned about E2 being in dmsi with some enhancements I figured I'd have to try it. Plus I do have some sexual hangups I'd like to get sorted out. I grew a great deal from Am6 but I'm trying to avoid the whole I don't need women as a way to rationalize my fear of actually getting women attitude. A lot of this thinking I picked up along fellow individuals who also struggled with women on forums and stuff growing up. Ego gratification is an easy trap to fall into and it's worse when there's a group reinforcing these beliefs. So in short if an opportunity presents itself and I want it, I want to have the choice to get it vs playing on my mental jungle gym and coming up with rationalizations to make myself feel better.
So as far as results go, I'm probably gonna be a bit slow with what I report. Despite all the healing, am6, whatever else I ran lol I still have some issues with attention from women. I have a tendency to simulatenously put out a vibe of look at me, then a feeling of don't look at me when I do get attention. So there's a lack of congruence there I need to overcome. This is going to sound incredibly shallow and vain, but when I was younger I was super nice to everyone and sometimes girls that I wasn't attracted to would relentlessly pursue me. Not wanting to hurt their feelings I didn't really tell them no, I didn't lead them on either but they kind of invaded my boundaries a bit. It was even worse when their friends would come up to me and say "you should date her" and I also got told I was "being picky" and pretty much attempted to get peer pressured into dating a girl I had no interest in. Let me just stop right here and say I HATE when women decide to play matchmaker. It can get borderline hostile when you try to explain you don't have interest in the nicest way possible. I hate how sometimes you have to be blunt or borderline mean to get a point across, but some of them are just so disrespectful and constantly push and try to manipulate you into "giving it a shot". Suddenly you're the bad guy and shamed. Just a small example of some of the crap men have to deal with growing up that nobody really acknowledges.
So yeah, kind of weird fears I need to get over. DMSI is definitely digging up something right now.
So as far as results go, I'm probably gonna be a bit slow with what I report. Despite all the healing, am6, whatever else I ran lol I still have some issues with attention from women. I have a tendency to simulatenously put out a vibe of look at me, then a feeling of don't look at me when I do get attention. So there's a lack of congruence there I need to overcome. This is going to sound incredibly shallow and vain, but when I was younger I was super nice to everyone and sometimes girls that I wasn't attracted to would relentlessly pursue me. Not wanting to hurt their feelings I didn't really tell them no, I didn't lead them on either but they kind of invaded my boundaries a bit. It was even worse when their friends would come up to me and say "you should date her" and I also got told I was "being picky" and pretty much attempted to get peer pressured into dating a girl I had no interest in. Let me just stop right here and say I HATE when women decide to play matchmaker. It can get borderline hostile when you try to explain you don't have interest in the nicest way possible. I hate how sometimes you have to be blunt or borderline mean to get a point across, but some of them are just so disrespectful and constantly push and try to manipulate you into "giving it a shot". Suddenly you're the bad guy and shamed. Just a small example of some of the crap men have to deal with growing up that nobody really acknowledges.
So yeah, kind of weird fears I need to get over. DMSI is definitely digging up something right now.
