06-29-2014, 04:26 PM
Stage 6, Day 20,
Today was a dark day. I woke up lonely as hell, Fapped to porn twice (not really what I want, but usually it's a quick fix for a bad mood... fapping I mean) felt like I was in a crappy place all day. Listening to STC was a challenge when I know that there are things like ASC, PTPA, Let go of the past, love yourself, etc. I still ended up finishing everything, but my family and friends are worried because I don't do bad days. They are rare and when they come they flood my thoughts and threaten to capsize me. I really want to stop STC and start PTPA, but I don't know if it will make anything better. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Today was a dark day. I woke up lonely as hell, Fapped to porn twice (not really what I want, but usually it's a quick fix for a bad mood... fapping I mean) felt like I was in a crappy place all day. Listening to STC was a challenge when I know that there are things like ASC, PTPA, Let go of the past, love yourself, etc. I still ended up finishing everything, but my family and friends are worried because I don't do bad days. They are rare and when they come they flood my thoughts and threaten to capsize me. I really want to stop STC and start PTPA, but I don't know if it will make anything better. Tomorrow will be a better day.
