06-16-2014, 12:21 PM
Stage 6, day 6
People are staring at me. Men, women, it doesn't matter. Starting to see the holes that AM5 left because there was too much work to do. If I wasn't going through AM6 after a run of BIABW then I would restart AM5 immediately.
After reflecting on what Lokko said it has come to this. I'm only attracted to 1 in 20 women because I have a standard of perfection for myself. My skin doesn't have to be perfect, but pretty close. I can't be too heavy or too skinny or I start freaking out and doing drastic things to gain/lose weight. Take ephedrine or copious amounts of green tea to lose (including existing physical fitness. That is a constant). Eat stupid amounts of food and calories to gain. Today I threw out my "emergency pack" of ephedrine at I have carried around since January "just in case" I got low on energy and couldn't finish what I was doing to my standard due to low calories.
Just thought I'd share that
People are staring at me. Men, women, it doesn't matter. Starting to see the holes that AM5 left because there was too much work to do. If I wasn't going through AM6 after a run of BIABW then I would restart AM5 immediately.
After reflecting on what Lokko said it has come to this. I'm only attracted to 1 in 20 women because I have a standard of perfection for myself. My skin doesn't have to be perfect, but pretty close. I can't be too heavy or too skinny or I start freaking out and doing drastic things to gain/lose weight. Take ephedrine or copious amounts of green tea to lose (including existing physical fitness. That is a constant). Eat stupid amounts of food and calories to gain. Today I threw out my "emergency pack" of ephedrine at I have carried around since January "just in case" I got low on energy and couldn't finish what I was doing to my standard due to low calories.
Just thought I'd share that
