05-26-2014, 12:05 PM
Stage 5, Day 17
I have been noticing women looking at me a lot more than ever before. I have been a little clueless when it comes to the signals that women are giving me. I also have the tendency to say awkward things that I observe about them. Stuff about their nature or their character. It freaks them out. I've been finding though that my thoughts are quicker and my tongue is slower. As in I actually have time to censor and choose what I want to say.
Also been noticing that I walk slower and that people get out of the way even if I'm slow. Additionally, people hold the door open for me and I continuously get asked if I'm a manager in the restaurant that I work in. I'm very happy being me, but I am antsy about the next step/sub and what that's going to mean to me or look like for me.
I have been having a huge predisposition to redheads lately, but I've been seeing them a lot more everywhere. I believe that this is because my self image said that I didn't deserve or couldn't get a red head. Holy putting women up on a pedestal. I've been finding flaws in a lot of the women that I meet, mostly just seeing that they are regular human beings too with their good and bad aspects. That's taken a lot of pressure off of any of the interactions that I have had with them.
I've been noticing that my diet is getting stricter. Where I could barely afford to eat before, now I'm choosing to eat less. In the last 5 months I've lost about 15-20lbs which has given me a six pack (always wanted one, accepted that I couldn't get one) and I'm fighting to maintain it. I don't go to the gym, but I do plyometrics 3 days a week and feel stronger and more balanced then I have in years.
Just need to sort this girl crap out. If I'm attracting them, but scaring them away... that's kinda a problem.....
I have been noticing women looking at me a lot more than ever before. I have been a little clueless when it comes to the signals that women are giving me. I also have the tendency to say awkward things that I observe about them. Stuff about their nature or their character. It freaks them out. I've been finding though that my thoughts are quicker and my tongue is slower. As in I actually have time to censor and choose what I want to say.
Also been noticing that I walk slower and that people get out of the way even if I'm slow. Additionally, people hold the door open for me and I continuously get asked if I'm a manager in the restaurant that I work in. I'm very happy being me, but I am antsy about the next step/sub and what that's going to mean to me or look like for me.
I have been having a huge predisposition to redheads lately, but I've been seeing them a lot more everywhere. I believe that this is because my self image said that I didn't deserve or couldn't get a red head. Holy putting women up on a pedestal. I've been finding flaws in a lot of the women that I meet, mostly just seeing that they are regular human beings too with their good and bad aspects. That's taken a lot of pressure off of any of the interactions that I have had with them.
I've been noticing that my diet is getting stricter. Where I could barely afford to eat before, now I'm choosing to eat less. In the last 5 months I've lost about 15-20lbs which has given me a six pack (always wanted one, accepted that I couldn't get one) and I'm fighting to maintain it. I don't go to the gym, but I do plyometrics 3 days a week and feel stronger and more balanced then I have in years.
Just need to sort this girl crap out. If I'm attracting them, but scaring them away... that's kinda a problem.....
