03-19-2015, 05:40 AM
Stage 3:
Day 4:
Doubts started creeping in towards the end of stage 2 and the first few days of stage 3, Left me wondering if the program was even working. I started thinking that the results obtained from the past two stages were merely a placebo effect. I am really angry with just about everything. I was/am angry with the way I have been taken for granted, or how I have been manipulated in the past. Procrastination is in another level. Not wanting to even go for the regular jog and yoga exersices I used to do earlier this year.
But respect is contining to grow, people take me much more seriously. My boss wants to raise my salary, he has a feeling that I may leave. I am starting to display a more serious attitude, yet I continued doubting this sub.
Just few hours back I did something that I would have not done in the past. While having a meeting about the feedback from a client, one of my colleague (who is a actually a nice guy) continued to annoy me by saying irrelevant things. Sometimes he repeated the same stupid naive thing year after year during every presentation. I lost my temper and yelled yet him to stop bullshitting in front of everyone. Not a nice thing to do, but I did it anyway. I had been wanting to do this for a very long time but I put this mr.Nice guy mask in the past and tried to ignore it.
Later my boss asked me to calm down (after 2hours) and asked me the reason why I exploded. I explained it to him and he agrees with my view, but he asked me not to repeat it, but I disagreed in a very polite way by saying that if he does it again, I will put him back in his place.
It does sound childish and contradicting the fact that I am becoming more matured as a person. But no, I am getting more matured and its just that I am displaying this 'STOP BULLS******* WITH ME' attitude, by the end of the AM6 training I expect to be polished.
Anyway this whole incident has changed the political atmosphere in this tiny little office as people who didn't take me seriously are more aware of my presence.
AM6 works like a MOFO
I would like to do more work on my romance side though. :|
Day 4:
Doubts started creeping in towards the end of stage 2 and the first few days of stage 3, Left me wondering if the program was even working. I started thinking that the results obtained from the past two stages were merely a placebo effect. I am really angry with just about everything. I was/am angry with the way I have been taken for granted, or how I have been manipulated in the past. Procrastination is in another level. Not wanting to even go for the regular jog and yoga exersices I used to do earlier this year.
But respect is contining to grow, people take me much more seriously. My boss wants to raise my salary, he has a feeling that I may leave. I am starting to display a more serious attitude, yet I continued doubting this sub.
Just few hours back I did something that I would have not done in the past. While having a meeting about the feedback from a client, one of my colleague (who is a actually a nice guy) continued to annoy me by saying irrelevant things. Sometimes he repeated the same stupid naive thing year after year during every presentation. I lost my temper and yelled yet him to stop bullshitting in front of everyone. Not a nice thing to do, but I did it anyway. I had been wanting to do this for a very long time but I put this mr.Nice guy mask in the past and tried to ignore it.
Later my boss asked me to calm down (after 2hours) and asked me the reason why I exploded. I explained it to him and he agrees with my view, but he asked me not to repeat it, but I disagreed in a very polite way by saying that if he does it again, I will put him back in his place.
It does sound childish and contradicting the fact that I am becoming more matured as a person. But no, I am getting more matured and its just that I am displaying this 'STOP BULLS******* WITH ME' attitude, by the end of the AM6 training I expect to be polished.
Anyway this whole incident has changed the political atmosphere in this tiny little office as people who didn't take me seriously are more aware of my presence.
AM6 works like a MOFO
I would like to do more work on my romance side though. :|
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