01-30-2015, 11:19 AM
DAY 23:
Everything is alright, all smooth, when I do get time to be around women I seem more and more at ease than before. The horse shit that covered THE REAL ME is all getting dug away and that subtle flirty side of me is returning. I went to check out this gym near my house and this receptionist was a 8/10 milf. As we talked she kept leaning towards me the whole time, I reminded myself to keep the eye contact and not to lean forward yet I was doing it all with ease, she came around the desk to get closer to me , I was not needy at all, yet I wanted to test her. The whole time she was asking me questions like she was building a rapport. Then I asked her if I could see the gym and she was more than happy to show it herself. She took me to the sauna and Turkish bath and she was saying that that part is unisex in a very flirty way and a wink. We continued talking, in between she did touch my hands now and then.
Then I went to get myself a sweater in the same building that the gym was situated. Again I found the sales girl extremely chatty with me and asked me the same pattern of questions in the beginning that the woman earlier asked, and kept chatting and when It was my turn to ask questions she was visibly nervous and a bit shaky in a good way. And she was not chatting about the job she was supposed to be doing.
Why its a big deal for me some may ask, its because I had this limited beliefs that I was kinda minority (race) around this place and even though I know I am attractive, I thought the Europeans might not find me attractive enough to sleep or have a relationship with me despite my success now and then. Stage one is pulling it out and throwing those shit up the air and burning it down with a blow torch. I don't know if stage one was supposed to do that in first place!
For the moment sex is not the most important activity even though my instincts tell me I need it badly for breakfast, lunch and dinner. In few weeks (depending on the recovery I am making while no fap) I will turn my attention to it. plus spring is gonna be around in no time!
Another thing I noticed is that I get this urge to keep finding materials/information to improve myself in every way. Ive been spending more time on those research than the job I am supposed to in the office. I think I will have to block the internet.
Everything is alright, all smooth, when I do get time to be around women I seem more and more at ease than before. The horse shit that covered THE REAL ME is all getting dug away and that subtle flirty side of me is returning. I went to check out this gym near my house and this receptionist was a 8/10 milf. As we talked she kept leaning towards me the whole time, I reminded myself to keep the eye contact and not to lean forward yet I was doing it all with ease, she came around the desk to get closer to me , I was not needy at all, yet I wanted to test her. The whole time she was asking me questions like she was building a rapport. Then I asked her if I could see the gym and she was more than happy to show it herself. She took me to the sauna and Turkish bath and she was saying that that part is unisex in a very flirty way and a wink. We continued talking, in between she did touch my hands now and then.
Then I went to get myself a sweater in the same building that the gym was situated. Again I found the sales girl extremely chatty with me and asked me the same pattern of questions in the beginning that the woman earlier asked, and kept chatting and when It was my turn to ask questions she was visibly nervous and a bit shaky in a good way. And she was not chatting about the job she was supposed to be doing.
Why its a big deal for me some may ask, its because I had this limited beliefs that I was kinda minority (race) around this place and even though I know I am attractive, I thought the Europeans might not find me attractive enough to sleep or have a relationship with me despite my success now and then. Stage one is pulling it out and throwing those shit up the air and burning it down with a blow torch. I don't know if stage one was supposed to do that in first place!
For the moment sex is not the most important activity even though my instincts tell me I need it badly for breakfast, lunch and dinner. In few weeks (depending on the recovery I am making while no fap) I will turn my attention to it.
plus spring is gonna be around in no time! Another thing I noticed is that I get this urge to keep finding materials/information to improve myself in every way. Ive been spending more time on those research than the job I am supposed to in the office. I think I will have to block the internet.
'Evolution depends on the variation within a species.'
Charles Darwin
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Charles Darwin
