06-12-2017, 12:41 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-12-2017, 12:47 PM by JackOfHearts.)
Day 32:
One hour per day since since starting, only once 2 hours.
So a very rough start, It seems a lot of fear was being worked on. The first week I felt it clearly. There was even a guy that started a fight with me probably due to this fear.
Though I knew my subconscious was fearful I wasn't consciously fearful. Not a lot of attraction, some the first week but not much, far from stable.
About 5 days ago I had a dream in which I killed 2 person accidentally, next day after that dream things started to change. I felt my strong attitude again, that morning I said to myself I need to be strong, all that day I was very different subconsciously, it was like there was a fire burning inside me, I would get angry more easily. Same feeling I had during the latter stage of SM3, when women were more into me. I read somewhere that when there is some dead in a dream there is a major change going on so it seems to confirm that. 2 days later I had another dream again, this time I killed one of my old friend. This remind me of AM5 when it was very obvious I had some fearful nights to say the least, it's being a long time I didn't see that amount of fear within me.
This version of DMSI seems very different to me than the other I tried until now due what I just said above.
Nice experience, the difference is day and night on how people react to you depending on what your subconscious state is.
External manifestation is around 0 right now
One hour per day since since starting, only once 2 hours.
So a very rough start, It seems a lot of fear was being worked on. The first week I felt it clearly. There was even a guy that started a fight with me probably due to this fear.
Though I knew my subconscious was fearful I wasn't consciously fearful. Not a lot of attraction, some the first week but not much, far from stable.
About 5 days ago I had a dream in which I killed 2 person accidentally, next day after that dream things started to change. I felt my strong attitude again, that morning I said to myself I need to be strong, all that day I was very different subconsciously, it was like there was a fire burning inside me, I would get angry more easily. Same feeling I had during the latter stage of SM3, when women were more into me. I read somewhere that when there is some dead in a dream there is a major change going on so it seems to confirm that. 2 days later I had another dream again, this time I killed one of my old friend. This remind me of AM5 when it was very obvious I had some fearful nights to say the least, it's being a long time I didn't see that amount of fear within me.
This version of DMSI seems very different to me than the other I tried until now due what I just said above.
Nice experience, the difference is day and night on how people react to you depending on what your subconscious state is.
External manifestation is around 0 right now
