04-21-2017, 02:44 PM
Been having some thoughts about AM6 recently. I'd just like to use something that causes deep, permanent, identity level change.
Nothing noticeable to report. As I've gone deeper into my subconscious, I've experienced the following emotions: sense of not belonging, feelings of worthlessness, feeling like my fate won't change regardless of what I do, depression, anger, feeling like an outsider, feeling uncomfortable around people, feeling a desire for those who have wronged me to get what they deserve, feeling like I don't have the skill to succeed with girls (even though I can list reasons why they should like me), feeling unaccomplished, feeling like I'm just different (I just really don't think anyone processes life like me. I feel I have an overactive imagination that can turn anything sexual, turn anything into something scary or unpleasant, etc. I feel my imagination is a two edged sword. Definitely useful for my industry when in a good state, but very unpleasant when I'm not).
I've noticed those things over the past month as I've been doing my meditations. I sometimes really do wonder if there is an "end" as I feel like my imagination has the ability to create endlessly. Back when things felt awesome for me, I pro-actively made sure I felt like I was in a good state. I made sure of it. But it was a false form of abundance. It had pre-requisites that had to met daily/weekly and when they weren't, it faded away, but when they were, I felt fuckin awesome. When I say I'm in it for permanent change, I'm in it to achieve that state, have it be self-regenerating with no effort, and remove all barriers from holding me back. I legitimately feel that my subconscious blocks are stopping me from even coming close to reaching my potential. If I let go of those permanently, I would have a different life.
Non Related
I really wished I would've copped a pair of the Jordan 4 Kaws. Resell on them in insane and for someone in college, it'd be awesome to get that much money so easily. Unfortunately, Paypal wasn't accepted...
Also, I got a new pair of Sony Bluetooth Headphones. They have a frequency response of up to 22khz when plugged in and 20khz (maybe a bit higher) over bluetooth. Today will be my first day using them for sub listening. I can say that since switching to listening from the Nexus 5, I think the audio quality sounds a bit better over my old iPhone 5. With the headphones, it should be noticeably better.
After thoughts
I do see that Shannon said that 3.2 will be just as big of a step as 3.0 to 3.1 was. Tbh, I'm hoping it's twice the step. I just think that it still has a way to go. Maybe it'll require full 6G technology to fully work.
If it's any help for 3.2, I have some thoughts. Most are probably already being considered or addressed, but might as well post it anyway.
1. I feel like my subconscious isn't nearly as productive as my conscious mind. Plenty of the things I've done in my life have been through conscious effort and practice. I just don't think my subconscious has performed nearly as well or done as much. So something to change that would be helpful.
2. This was definitely mentioned. But something should be added so that I can consciously know how to help the program. I don't know what else to do aside from what I'm already doing. Sometimes it's difficult to think positively at all. So something that injects the user with positivity would be great as well.
3. This is a major one. Strong and blatant manifestations. And when they show up, there needs to be some kind of definite sign so the user knows it's one of their manifestations. I say this because it's easy for your mind to play games with you and think a girl is a manifestation and turns out she definitely wasn't.
Nothing noticeable to report. As I've gone deeper into my subconscious, I've experienced the following emotions: sense of not belonging, feelings of worthlessness, feeling like my fate won't change regardless of what I do, depression, anger, feeling like an outsider, feeling uncomfortable around people, feeling a desire for those who have wronged me to get what they deserve, feeling like I don't have the skill to succeed with girls (even though I can list reasons why they should like me), feeling unaccomplished, feeling like I'm just different (I just really don't think anyone processes life like me. I feel I have an overactive imagination that can turn anything sexual, turn anything into something scary or unpleasant, etc. I feel my imagination is a two edged sword. Definitely useful for my industry when in a good state, but very unpleasant when I'm not).
I've noticed those things over the past month as I've been doing my meditations. I sometimes really do wonder if there is an "end" as I feel like my imagination has the ability to create endlessly. Back when things felt awesome for me, I pro-actively made sure I felt like I was in a good state. I made sure of it. But it was a false form of abundance. It had pre-requisites that had to met daily/weekly and when they weren't, it faded away, but when they were, I felt fuckin awesome. When I say I'm in it for permanent change, I'm in it to achieve that state, have it be self-regenerating with no effort, and remove all barriers from holding me back. I legitimately feel that my subconscious blocks are stopping me from even coming close to reaching my potential. If I let go of those permanently, I would have a different life.
Non Related
I really wished I would've copped a pair of the Jordan 4 Kaws. Resell on them in insane and for someone in college, it'd be awesome to get that much money so easily. Unfortunately, Paypal wasn't accepted...
Also, I got a new pair of Sony Bluetooth Headphones. They have a frequency response of up to 22khz when plugged in and 20khz (maybe a bit higher) over bluetooth. Today will be my first day using them for sub listening. I can say that since switching to listening from the Nexus 5, I think the audio quality sounds a bit better over my old iPhone 5. With the headphones, it should be noticeably better.
After thoughts
I do see that Shannon said that 3.2 will be just as big of a step as 3.0 to 3.1 was. Tbh, I'm hoping it's twice the step. I just think that it still has a way to go. Maybe it'll require full 6G technology to fully work.
If it's any help for 3.2, I have some thoughts. Most are probably already being considered or addressed, but might as well post it anyway.
1. I feel like my subconscious isn't nearly as productive as my conscious mind. Plenty of the things I've done in my life have been through conscious effort and practice. I just don't think my subconscious has performed nearly as well or done as much. So something to change that would be helpful.
2. This was definitely mentioned. But something should be added so that I can consciously know how to help the program. I don't know what else to do aside from what I'm already doing. Sometimes it's difficult to think positively at all. So something that injects the user with positivity would be great as well.
3. This is a major one. Strong and blatant manifestations. And when they show up, there needs to be some kind of definite sign so the user knows it's one of their manifestations. I say this because it's easy for your mind to play games with you and think a girl is a manifestation and turns out she definitely wasn't.
