11-06-2016, 01:50 PM
Friday night I watched porn and busted a couple of nuts. I felt relieved but still very sexual for a bit afterwards. But I didn't get the urge to binge the next day as I usually do. Usually, I watch on Friday, then on Saturday I feel like doing it again (sometimes I do, sometimes I don't) and then I don't from Sunday till the following weekend.
Last night I finally was free and went out with two of my female friends I haven't seen since the semester started. It was awesome, we went to see Doctor Strange (amazing movie, highly recommend it), and we hung out till like 3 in the morning. I'm not attracted to either of them btw. I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary from them either. They want to hang out again before the semester ends.
We went to plenty of different places and I did see some attractive girls. Didn't see anyone responding to me any differently or giving me attention.
We did go to Steak and Shake and a guy was our server. I asked him if the egg nog shake was good, he said it was so I ordered it. He said to let him if I didn't like it and he'd get me a different one. This is the first time out of all the times I've been there that a worker openly said that to me. I did like the shake though so I didn't ask him to switch it. Also, when I went to pay for my bill, I paid with the app and on my email receipt it gave me an extra "$1 off". I don't know if the waiter did that (he rung me up at the register too) or if it was just a discount from the app. I doubt it was a discount from the app because I already had the $5 off from it and that was on the receipt as well.
Today, I felt very comfortable driving, more than last time. I even parked in my special parking spot flawlessly lol.
Thoughts
I had fun last night for sure, but when I woke up today I was kinda surprised that nothing out the ordinary happened from girls. But I definitely need to give the program time. I feel like running a DMSI version with clearing is going to pay off in the long run. I may run a no clearing version in the future just so I know how I respond to it, but that probably won't happen this year. I'll be going straight from 2.4 to 3.0A.
I haven't ran ultrasonic yet. I plan on running it on Thursday night. If it negatively affects me, I have no class on Friday so nothing to really worry about.
I had some time to think and I really questioned if I have been growing as a person for the last year, specifically regarding girls. I think this is a sign the clearing is kicking in.
I'm all for NSFM being in 3.0. I don't see how anyone can be firing on all cylinders with a program that has deep healing in it. I know I'm not on point with my off the cuff verbals like I was when I had the week off from E2. I think NSFM could correct that, that'd be very helpful. It may not make it to the final DMSI, but it should be tested.
I kind of wonder to myself if I'm gonna really go start initiating with random hot girls again (not the girls who make eye contact and smile. the ones who don't notice until I roll up to them). I'd just like things to be in my favor if I ever started doing it again.
Last night I finally was free and went out with two of my female friends I haven't seen since the semester started. It was awesome, we went to see Doctor Strange (amazing movie, highly recommend it), and we hung out till like 3 in the morning. I'm not attracted to either of them btw. I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary from them either. They want to hang out again before the semester ends.
We went to plenty of different places and I did see some attractive girls. Didn't see anyone responding to me any differently or giving me attention.
We did go to Steak and Shake and a guy was our server. I asked him if the egg nog shake was good, he said it was so I ordered it. He said to let him if I didn't like it and he'd get me a different one. This is the first time out of all the times I've been there that a worker openly said that to me. I did like the shake though so I didn't ask him to switch it. Also, when I went to pay for my bill, I paid with the app and on my email receipt it gave me an extra "$1 off". I don't know if the waiter did that (he rung me up at the register too) or if it was just a discount from the app. I doubt it was a discount from the app because I already had the $5 off from it and that was on the receipt as well.
Today, I felt very comfortable driving, more than last time. I even parked in my special parking spot flawlessly lol.
Thoughts
I had fun last night for sure, but when I woke up today I was kinda surprised that nothing out the ordinary happened from girls. But I definitely need to give the program time. I feel like running a DMSI version with clearing is going to pay off in the long run. I may run a no clearing version in the future just so I know how I respond to it, but that probably won't happen this year. I'll be going straight from 2.4 to 3.0A.
I haven't ran ultrasonic yet. I plan on running it on Thursday night. If it negatively affects me, I have no class on Friday so nothing to really worry about.
I had some time to think and I really questioned if I have been growing as a person for the last year, specifically regarding girls. I think this is a sign the clearing is kicking in.
I'm all for NSFM being in 3.0. I don't see how anyone can be firing on all cylinders with a program that has deep healing in it. I know I'm not on point with my off the cuff verbals like I was when I had the week off from E2. I think NSFM could correct that, that'd be very helpful. It may not make it to the final DMSI, but it should be tested.
I kind of wonder to myself if I'm gonna really go start initiating with random hot girls again (not the girls who make eye contact and smile. the ones who don't notice until I roll up to them). I'd just like things to be in my favor if I ever started doing it again.
