07-03-2020, 03:19 PM
Gotta share this.
I do the same thing with guys. As I got up after writing that post, I thought of my brother, the one I've said "it's HIS FAULT, HIS FAULT, HIS FAULT!!"
I've kept him away. I've done that. I'm responsible for that. I've not had boundaries, but.... again, this was MY doing.
I've not apologized to any of my family members in eons. I've hurt them, distancing myself constantly. My sister learned she has throat cancer almost 2 months back. I've not contacted her.
I'm just beginning to see these relational separations. I found some tolerance in doing that for a long time. I'm unsure how I'll change it. Shit, I'm home for at least a week. I have a phone.
I do the same thing with guys. As I got up after writing that post, I thought of my brother, the one I've said "it's HIS FAULT, HIS FAULT, HIS FAULT!!"
I've kept him away. I've done that. I'm responsible for that. I've not had boundaries, but.... again, this was MY doing.
I've not apologized to any of my family members in eons. I've hurt them, distancing myself constantly. My sister learned she has throat cancer almost 2 months back. I've not contacted her.
I'm just beginning to see these relational separations. I found some tolerance in doing that for a long time. I'm unsure how I'll change it. Shit, I'm home for at least a week. I have a phone.
I want to be FREE!
