Day 3, Off
I'm very antsy today. I am very busy with work yet bored at the same time. Maybe due to tiredness. I didn't get enough sleep on my 2nd day and 3rd day, they are compounding.
Been smoking a lot even though I don't really feel like smoking anymore. It's just going through the motions.
Started hitting the gym again for the past week, everything hurts. I want to go today but there is much work to be done.
These past few weeks, I've been talking to someone I like. I get attached quickly. There is this small neediness feeling, I say small because it feels suppressed. Historically I would feel miserable for a few days, but now it's just a small feeling in my gut that doesn't seem to fully surface. I acknowledge it then disappears in a moment. I talk to other women as well to distract myself though I have this faint thought that it may back fire.
I get upset when things don't go the way I want it to but it doesn't last. A few minutes and I'll bounce back.
There was a guy at the gas station who I held the door for and he started chatting me up. We were from the same city and invited me to church, I didn't explicitly say yes but I asked details.
I am getting cocky with my interaction at work. I don't even think about ramifications. I remember feeling this way during ASC 5g run, not as fully blown but was very liberating feeling, like I got out of a cage and nothing can stop me. I got into a fight with a very close friend of mine due to it back then.
For reference, I'm listening to ocean masked track in my phone through earbuds at 6/15 volume.
I'm very antsy today. I am very busy with work yet bored at the same time. Maybe due to tiredness. I didn't get enough sleep on my 2nd day and 3rd day, they are compounding.
Been smoking a lot even though I don't really feel like smoking anymore. It's just going through the motions.
Started hitting the gym again for the past week, everything hurts. I want to go today but there is much work to be done.
These past few weeks, I've been talking to someone I like. I get attached quickly. There is this small neediness feeling, I say small because it feels suppressed. Historically I would feel miserable for a few days, but now it's just a small feeling in my gut that doesn't seem to fully surface. I acknowledge it then disappears in a moment. I talk to other women as well to distract myself though I have this faint thought that it may back fire.
I get upset when things don't go the way I want it to but it doesn't last. A few minutes and I'll bounce back.
There was a guy at the gas station who I held the door for and he started chatting me up. We were from the same city and invited me to church, I didn't explicitly say yes but I asked details.
I am getting cocky with my interaction at work. I don't even think about ramifications. I remember feeling this way during ASC 5g run, not as fully blown but was very liberating feeling, like I got out of a cage and nothing can stop me. I got into a fight with a very close friend of mine due to it back then.
For reference, I'm listening to ocean masked track in my phone through earbuds at 6/15 volume.
