08-19-2024, 03:40 AM
Weight is down slightly below 99 kg, whoop-dee-doop.
I had vivid dreams, school-related mostly from what I remember, and one weird one that took place in a hotel and involved a talking dog (a pitbull terrier, to be exact). He was a poor boy! Also had moments of wonky sensations every now and again. So healing is still going strong. I do feel a bit weary of it, though, so I'll probably simply finish up the 7th month and then switch to OGSF (I don't want to spend years on end running one program, especially one that does not alter my life circumstances directly). Tomorrow will mark 6 months of EHPRAing. I'll simply revisit the program should I feel like it needs more time later on. The plan is still EHPRA -> OGSF -> another go at OED -> hopefully DMSI Final.
I am getting moments of anger and frustration, mostly directed at certain members of the opposite sex and certain individuals who had treated me in a humiliating manner without facing any consequences. This makes me angry.
Working on translation jobs, had to export what I was working on from the server to my own copy of the CAT software because the server crapped out on me more than once and I lost all progress and that made me frustrated. It did turn out the job isn't as large as I thought originally because it has plenty of repetitions (so less work, but also less potato).
I felt happy on Saturday because I was making progress with singing and that made me all "yippie"! Now I'm awaiting word from places I sent out my recordings to, to see whether they'll have me do live auditions.
Feeling lonely still, but that group I joined helps me alleviate that, especially since I'm distancing myself from my "friends" as they are in my opinion hypocrites and also that psycho ex of mine is in that group and no-one's every called her out on her bullshit.
I had vivid dreams, school-related mostly from what I remember, and one weird one that took place in a hotel and involved a talking dog (a pitbull terrier, to be exact). He was a poor boy! Also had moments of wonky sensations every now and again. So healing is still going strong. I do feel a bit weary of it, though, so I'll probably simply finish up the 7th month and then switch to OGSF (I don't want to spend years on end running one program, especially one that does not alter my life circumstances directly). Tomorrow will mark 6 months of EHPRAing. I'll simply revisit the program should I feel like it needs more time later on. The plan is still EHPRA -> OGSF -> another go at OED -> hopefully DMSI Final.
I am getting moments of anger and frustration, mostly directed at certain members of the opposite sex and certain individuals who had treated me in a humiliating manner without facing any consequences. This makes me angry.
Working on translation jobs, had to export what I was working on from the server to my own copy of the CAT software because the server crapped out on me more than once and I lost all progress and that made me frustrated. It did turn out the job isn't as large as I thought originally because it has plenty of repetitions (so less work, but also less potato).
I felt happy on Saturday because I was making progress with singing and that made me all "yippie"! Now I'm awaiting word from places I sent out my recordings to, to see whether they'll have me do live auditions.
Feeling lonely still, but that group I joined helps me alleviate that, especially since I'm distancing myself from my "friends" as they are in my opinion hypocrites and also that psycho ex of mine is in that group and no-one's every called her out on her bullshit.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley