05-18-2015, 09:55 AM
Something I'm always debating in my head is what I can change vs what I can't in myself. I've learned that there were a lot of destructive habits and mindsets I had that could change, but at the time I thought they were permanent. But I'm always wondering about my highly sensitive nature. If that's something that can also be changed.
Sometimes I can be a bit reluctant to accepting things when they differ from what society expects of a person. So I might end up fighting a losing battle and stressing myself out trying to change something that cannot be changed. My sensitivity isn't just in the emotional sense, any kind of over stimulation can wear me out. Places with lots of people can be draining. There's a lot of stuff that is hard for me to do because of my heightened sensitivity. My first job was cashiering and it was hell on my body and mind. I don't think I can work retail, too many people coming and going, belligerent customers, angry managers, etc. It's tempting to think because I can't really work in a retail environment that I'm some kind of failure. Like I should be able to do this like everyone else.
I guess that's been a lot of my life. Feeling like I'm not fitting in like I'm supposed to and feeling like it's all my fault. I think I need to work on focusing on my strengths instead of feeling bad about my weaknesses.
Sometimes I can be a bit reluctant to accepting things when they differ from what society expects of a person. So I might end up fighting a losing battle and stressing myself out trying to change something that cannot be changed. My sensitivity isn't just in the emotional sense, any kind of over stimulation can wear me out. Places with lots of people can be draining. There's a lot of stuff that is hard for me to do because of my heightened sensitivity. My first job was cashiering and it was hell on my body and mind. I don't think I can work retail, too many people coming and going, belligerent customers, angry managers, etc. It's tempting to think because I can't really work in a retail environment that I'm some kind of failure. Like I should be able to do this like everyone else.
I guess that's been a lot of my life. Feeling like I'm not fitting in like I'm supposed to and feeling like it's all my fault. I think I need to work on focusing on my strengths instead of feeling bad about my weaknesses.
