E6 journal

[User_000]

Now i remember my second big problem, getting so used to obey because doing so means security but becuase of that i have big issues when trying to disobey even when i don't want to do something, i became dependent of that shit and of course i don't like it, now i need to consider if that's something that needs to be solved with something like E6 or just try the next AM since it trigger lots of fear when trying to disobey and that leads to repress emotions (again) then trying to run away or hide or evade reality watching stuff on internet.

Well, as i once thought and got reminded while watching a video, need to kill every person i obey in my inner self including myself.