08-07-2017, 08:31 AM
E2 I have Weird ass dreams of like people teaching me some heavy stuff and giving me instructions to do in the real world when I'm lucid (Never Practiced lucid dreaming).
I also have bad dreams of me fighting with my father or getting at bullies who bullied me in life.
I also have a sorta bioenergetic tremors going on in my Face sometimes, not noticeable to anybody else but me.
On E1 I was seeing ghosts and shit the first two months I ran it, I was getting pulled off the bed at night by someone and I had Heart Palpitations and 90 BPM was my normal heart rate.
When I switched to E2 the first few minutes I ran It I felt high as Fvck and went to sleep. When I woke up I had tremors like you get in bioenergetics in my legs and this lasted untill February 2017 where it just stopped and switched to my face.
A side effects of the sub is that it tore down all the goals I have that are other people's goals and now I am aimless because the life I wanted wasn't the life I truly wanted but others dreams. Also my identity has been thrown out the window and I don't know who am I and what is my purpose.
Also Tons, I mean tons and Tons of DARK.... Thoughts. That Positive thinking Positive attitude has had the opposite effect. I have had some oedipal Complex things come up also.
616 and 919 keep on showing up everywhere to me, in YouTube videos, in the time, on Busses and even on the forums last night I saw sarge post a post at 9:19 In my time.
616 seems to represent emotional healing and rebirth and regeneration
While 919 seems to represent a end of things the way they are and a preparation for a new beggning.
E2 seems to have successfully installed anti-suicidal thoughts programming because when I have one thought about that my mind gives me 1001 reasons why I should live.
Forgiveness programming is kinda working because it is increasingly getting harder and harder to hold grudges because I see myself in others and I see that we are not so much different even for my enemies.
I still can't express my rage and it still collapses in on me when I have the emotions and implodes instead of explodes and moves out.
Any thoughts Shannon and Crew?
I also have bad dreams of me fighting with my father or getting at bullies who bullied me in life.
I also have a sorta bioenergetic tremors going on in my Face sometimes, not noticeable to anybody else but me.
On E1 I was seeing ghosts and shit the first two months I ran it, I was getting pulled off the bed at night by someone and I had Heart Palpitations and 90 BPM was my normal heart rate.
When I switched to E2 the first few minutes I ran It I felt high as Fvck and went to sleep. When I woke up I had tremors like you get in bioenergetics in my legs and this lasted untill February 2017 where it just stopped and switched to my face.
A side effects of the sub is that it tore down all the goals I have that are other people's goals and now I am aimless because the life I wanted wasn't the life I truly wanted but others dreams. Also my identity has been thrown out the window and I don't know who am I and what is my purpose.
Also Tons, I mean tons and Tons of DARK.... Thoughts. That Positive thinking Positive attitude has had the opposite effect. I have had some oedipal Complex things come up also.
616 and 919 keep on showing up everywhere to me, in YouTube videos, in the time, on Busses and even on the forums last night I saw sarge post a post at 9:19 In my time.
616 seems to represent emotional healing and rebirth and regeneration
While 919 seems to represent a end of things the way they are and a preparation for a new beggning.
E2 seems to have successfully installed anti-suicidal thoughts programming because when I have one thought about that my mind gives me 1001 reasons why I should live.
Forgiveness programming is kinda working because it is increasingly getting harder and harder to hold grudges because I see myself in others and I see that we are not so much different even for my enemies.
I still can't express my rage and it still collapses in on me when I have the emotions and implodes instead of explodes and moves out.
Any thoughts Shannon and Crew?
E2 Days in All: 606 Days
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
