08-11-2014, 04:05 PM
Mmmm ok thanks. Maybe i'm really needing time for adjusting in this feeling -.-, is so weird. But men , swisston it would be cool if it was like a piece of clothes xD, removing it and then put it, bam ou are a better you NOW!- lol
I beein thinking today and i think i need to kill all my self neediness for other people opinion around me. Mostly because i feel i'm interacting better with people but im looking for people opinion about me like i feel that this confidence is not building around me, and is building about what i want people to think of me :S. That's what i have seeing more if i don't receive someone opinion or feeling around my self, my confidence crumbles, and it suck it shouldn't be like this.
---------Well day 15-----------
Today was an ok day, By the way there is something i didn't put yesterday, i played Rugby with my family, i have years without playing rugby, the last time i played was in high school, and that was years ago lol. To resume things, physically i wasn't in my tops, i have't doing body working in years soo meh, But mentally oh mentally i was in the game, concentrated calm, confident, even if my team lossed i was happy, before this if a played a game like this i will be sad, thinking like ¨Why i play if i'm gonna lose.¨ In that moment i didn't care i was just having fun, and was the most happy guy ever
So before talking about this day, i have to say this i barely get out my house, i told you guys how i have not played in years right?. well all my body hurts, ALLLL of it, but there 0s something funny, if i was in a situation like this in the past i will be like ¨Never again, Neveeeeerrr¨. Now?, i'm like man that was soo cool, i'm feel good i'm feeling awesome, even if i am a bit tiredly of yesterday.
The day was ok, everything is going fine, i have some self issues i been having about what i want, and somehow, my old porn addiction coming back. When i don't needing it. Weird
I get out to buy a router antena that was broked. I was feeling uncomfortable walking, and talking. I don't understand why if yesterday was ok, today? i feel like i didn0't know what to do :S
So that's all folks, thanks for reading let see if tomorrow things get better
I beein thinking today and i think i need to kill all my self neediness for other people opinion around me. Mostly because i feel i'm interacting better with people but im looking for people opinion about me like i feel that this confidence is not building around me, and is building about what i want people to think of me :S. That's what i have seeing more if i don't receive someone opinion or feeling around my self, my confidence crumbles, and it suck it shouldn't be like this.
---------Well day 15-----------
Today was an ok day, By the way there is something i didn't put yesterday, i played Rugby with my family, i have years without playing rugby, the last time i played was in high school, and that was years ago lol. To resume things, physically i wasn't in my tops, i have't doing body working in years soo meh, But mentally oh mentally i was in the game, concentrated calm, confident, even if my team lossed i was happy, before this if a played a game like this i will be sad, thinking like ¨Why i play if i'm gonna lose.¨ In that moment i didn't care i was just having fun, and was the most happy guy ever
So before talking about this day, i have to say this i barely get out my house, i told you guys how i have not played in years right?. well all my body hurts, ALLLL of it, but there 0s something funny, if i was in a situation like this in the past i will be like ¨Never again, Neveeeeerrr¨. Now?, i'm like man that was soo cool, i'm feel good i'm feeling awesome, even if i am a bit tiredly of yesterday.
The day was ok, everything is going fine, i have some self issues i been having about what i want, and somehow, my old porn addiction coming back. When i don't needing it. Weird
I get out to buy a router antena that was broked. I was feeling uncomfortable walking, and talking. I don't understand why if yesterday was ok, today? i feel like i didn0't know what to do :S
So that's all folks, thanks for reading let see if tomorrow things get better
