08-02-2014, 08:29 PM
Ugh, Day 6 was not what i wanted.
I have a family meeting today. Although i didn't do anything slighty better for myself. You know is weird somehow the file dosen't work around my family, is like i become a rock. I don't know why. Weird thing is my family avoid eyes contact, weird.... Oh idk if it was good, but my cousin girlfriend keept checking me, so some pros?, But again my dad got drunk and tries a lot to get into a fight with me, although this time i keep evading myself better than other times. It was slighty better that normal but...still...
I keep having problems, idk why, well i have mi ideas but Ugh....
I don't understand when i beginned i feel great when i begin this journey, but i notice that with every day that pass i begin to think more negatively over myself. Yet i feel more confident :S.
i think i have my ideas why is happening
1- Maybe i don't have a good idea of what i want the file to do for my self. I Know that i want to change for better, but maybe i don't know what exactly i want with this file?. What is the image of myself i want to improve exactly and my mind is going numb?
2- I think that maybe i will be dropping meditating with other files because maybe is equivalent to listen more files?... i think so.
So tomorrow i will begin to do this two things, and found a way to listen the files while sleeping, there is the chance i sleep less, but i really want to see if i could listen the audio de 8 hours minimun
I have a family meeting today. Although i didn't do anything slighty better for myself. You know is weird somehow the file dosen't work around my family, is like i become a rock. I don't know why. Weird thing is my family avoid eyes contact, weird.... Oh idk if it was good, but my cousin girlfriend keept checking me, so some pros?, But again my dad got drunk and tries a lot to get into a fight with me, although this time i keep evading myself better than other times. It was slighty better that normal but...still...
I keep having problems, idk why, well i have mi ideas but Ugh....
I don't understand when i beginned i feel great when i begin this journey, but i notice that with every day that pass i begin to think more negatively over myself. Yet i feel more confident :S.
i think i have my ideas why is happening
1- Maybe i don't have a good idea of what i want the file to do for my self. I Know that i want to change for better, but maybe i don't know what exactly i want with this file?. What is the image of myself i want to improve exactly and my mind is going numb?
2- I think that maybe i will be dropping meditating with other files because maybe is equivalent to listen more files?... i think so.
So tomorrow i will begin to do this two things, and found a way to listen the files while sleeping, there is the chance i sleep less, but i really want to see if i could listen the audio de 8 hours minimun
