Again, 5 loops TS hybrid over sleep phones last night.
Still have my cold. Fap fail this morning.
I have tried to work out what fears I have that might be holding me back. The best I can come up with is that I have some shame around sexuality. It feels like something that should be hidden away.
Oddly I have no issue talking about sex, but that feels a bit like 'front'.
I have a fear that if I'm exuding sexuality, then I'm suggesting that I'm cheating on my gf and will be judged by her. I've always had to keep any flirting or just genuine connection with other women hidden from her because she gets very upset by it immediately. It's been like that for 20 years.
Still have my cold. Fap fail this morning.
I have tried to work out what fears I have that might be holding me back. The best I can come up with is that I have some shame around sexuality. It feels like something that should be hidden away.
Oddly I have no issue talking about sex, but that feels a bit like 'front'.
I have a fear that if I'm exuding sexuality, then I'm suggesting that I'm cheating on my gf and will be judged by her. I've always had to keep any flirting or just genuine connection with other women hidden from her because she gets very upset by it immediately. It's been like that for 20 years.
Fear Is The Mind-killer
