07-01-2012, 05:14 PM
(06-29-2012, 11:35 AM)Spiral Wrote: If there's more things to clear out then maybe you should keep running the sub!
Sounds like you are having a good time, Mat. I have the same issue. Depending on how critical I think the situation can be to my well being and happiness is how strong my anxiety can be. So what I do now is do my best to let go of the anxiety.. and not think about that interview or meeting I have to go to until I'm actually at the meeting. Even if it means that I have to continually think about it but let it go over and over. It has taken some practice and I still have to work at it but now I just do my best to not think about things much anymore. It's helped it a lot of ways.
I was working at doing a similar thing for a while. I guess somewhere along the way I slacked off and stopped practicing. I think my biggest problem was I got too obsessive about what letting go meant. So I started having anxiety over doing it right haha. I think I have a fair bit of OCD when it comes to some stuff and I get stuck in these repetitive thoughts.
Having said that I'm going to become much more vigilant with watching my thoughts and re-framing them. I think that was where I went wrong in my practice, I focused on letting go of the emotion so much that I neglected to deal with the thoughts behind that emotion.
And I realized that I slacked off because I just felt it was unfair. I just wanted to be normal like everyone else and not have to deal with these irrational thoughts and emotions. I've accepted that my life isn't that easy for me currently and I may have to work a bit harder than the average person, but I'm not going to let that get me down. If anything it makes me a stronger person. I know if I just keep moving forward it's inevitable that I get better.
