Depression

[JackOfHearts]

I have never gone to the Doctors about this stuff and I have done every alternative I can think of, over many many years. I have lost hope.

I'm sure there is still a lot of alternative before going to see a Doctors (western type -> drug addict)

Depending on your country and money there are a lot of alternatives.
Have you try some Chinese Doctor, some stuff like acupuncture, energy healing etc?
Have you try some Hindu/Vedic doctors?
Have you try astrology?
Have you try Bach flower remedy? the rescue remedy can do wonder for everyone, available almost everywhere in the world for a piece of cake.

From my research most of the problem are either psychological/subconscious or related to eating/food. So you can also consult some expert in that field. A good Ayurvedic doctor can do that very easily, I'm sure some occidental expert are good too.

If you are very wealthy you can try Richard Bandler too, from what I heard from him he loves to study the extreme case for free. He might be interested if you are among the extreme one.

update:
A good idea to find a good therapist/hypnotist to cure you: Tell them you will pay only if they are able to cure you in a very short period of time. Change should be seen after a few days. If nothing happened after a week the guy is incompetent. If a hypnotist tell you only some people can be hypnotized it means he is not an expert but he can still do some wonder for some people.

You can also watch some Bandler video like "Richard Bandler - 30 Years of NLP", these video really help me to have to some fun, being enthusiastic in just a few days. If you are really desperate do an experiment: Watch Bandler video for week like you would watch the series Game of thrones, his audio are cheaper and cool too.