04-12-2014, 08:23 AM
Well I woke up and cried this morning like a little puss. I kind of started reminiscing over the past 5-6 years. I have a very good memory (so does my dad), and I was just thinking about all the fun times I've had with all my friends throughout the years. And it's not just partying, it's driving in the car going to the grocery store, or when we lived in the dorms and didn't have cars and took the city bus to Walmart. It's just stupid little things that I remember. (My memory doesn't seem to help me with school though). I've had such a great life and had such great times. But I've wasted it all not making progress in school. The fact that I'm most likely going to fail this semester makes this all that much worse. I don't want to get kicked out of school and be a total poor failure in life. I wish I could go back and do it all over again and make sure I go to class and do the required work. I'm almost 24 years old and won't be graduating for 2-3 more years, and that's if I don't get kicked out. I really have no idea what I'm going to do. I've failed like 6 semesters, do I really deserve any more chances? I want to graduate with an engineering degree. But like I said in an earlier post, there's all these things I want, want to do, and want to be, but I don't want to put in the effort to achieve them, and I don't know how to change that.
