Day 3 cycle 3 version A
Im starting to realize the initial "wall" I sometimes face/faced. Its an matter of confidence. Its basically insecurity. Its a pattern Im facing/faced for a long time. With lots of people I vibe from the get go. Yet, sometimes, there is still this pattern surfacing. Dealing with this will be fruitfull to say the least. Being comfy from the start. Its an sort of freeze response towards the unknown. DMSI does gear me towards being comfortable in the uncomfortable, basically shattering the notion of comfortzone.
Im being blatantly checked out. One girl, "Rox" was last time blatanly hitting on me. She kept bringing up phallic fruits amidst of work, bumping constant into me. Steering the convo blatantly towards fucking. Bringing up words like "long", "hard" "deep" and getting off about it even. Makes me think about women being mentally stimulated as they get off from 50shades and the likings. Its one of my kinks aswell, to dominate them mentally so they turn fully submissive and become a puddle of cum, drooling and fully giving over. Its so fully natural to me. She even blurted out "I promised [name bf ]..." yet she kept going. Several women at work did mention me wearing calvin klein boxers and the whole setting turned out sexual. Electricity in the air with 3 women simultaneously. My ass was almost topic off the day. Not to say, "N" is fickle.
With, J, I brought up how I seemed to develop an shoulder injury. She begun to massage it and I felt all barrier burst. Today in yoga class, she kept involving me. Also when going deep, she started to lightly push my back a bit and this only strengthened the savageness. When kino is taking place, it all is a done deal. Not to say, I screen instantly. It was like a sniper moment and I selected instantly, or rather, my mind did through commenting "bang" as in banging/dtf, without needing their validation. Total selection procedure, owning their pussy.
What DMSI is steering me to is location. Like, making me aware of location when pulling/getting pulled. For some reason this is brought up and seems like a sticking point. In the past I had no problems escalating with women in the clubs. They came up to me basically. My mindset has been "fucking at her place/mine, whatever" especially on 3.1 it was clear to me. Yet, having scenarios of being out and banging on the spot? It causes some unease.
One I remember where several friends of my sister. One proposed sex back them under circumstances which is why I didnt close. She had the fantasy of having my sister watch. Lol. Other moments when out was instantly hooking up with 2 girls back them. In my late teens I had a girl basically stalking me and chasing me at work while I had my eyes on another girl. Other times when out and starting with cory skyy pre ASC, girls grinded up to me while giving me dtf eyes looking backwards to me. Their ass against mine. I was oblivious to this then. Totally out of form aswell, like being out for the fucking first time.
Internally things are being dealt with, HARD. Im really going to a place of women.closing me. Of having them jump my bones. My ddlg is resurfacing. At the gym Im unstoppable, going beastmode. My anxiety is way lower. My dreams are sexual and somewhat familiar at times, like waking places blend within dreams.
I like feminine sweet women with great bodies. NoLimit posted a link of the scaling of women, the 1/10 scale. In this link, the girls that are classified as nines are those I easily attract and move on to attracting. It caught me somewhat off guard. For me they seem...normal? Like I said, I move to a reality in which women will jump my bones. Like, sunbathing and 2 girls comin up and ending up banging them both, or them me. It crossed my mind without me steering to it, like a vision.
Im getting really sexual in my mind. Im naturally seductive in many ways. Like, my eyes and such. Im looking so handsome
Another thing that came up during weights, was status. Im somewhat turned off when thinking back to it, like, why do I need other people to have my status. Can go dark fast for me, like getting cold, serious amd agressive. Its basically an sort of bitterness towards people and some shit they pull off, fuck em. This came about when reading Dzemoo's sm3 journal.
Nowadays Im reframing automatically. Twisting words and toying with them. Shifting words in sentences and reading them wrong.
Also, last few days, game is coming up. When dropping it, attraction skyrockets, giving women full reign to seduce me. Its an thugwar at times, as its like "improving game" vs "natural/no game needed" will I allow DMSI to do its thing?
I have experienced the relief in this multiple times. Wherever Im griwing to, I will no longer think about it.
Im high status. High value. Attractive and sex in the flesh.
Im starting to realize the initial "wall" I sometimes face/faced. Its an matter of confidence. Its basically insecurity. Its a pattern Im facing/faced for a long time. With lots of people I vibe from the get go. Yet, sometimes, there is still this pattern surfacing. Dealing with this will be fruitfull to say the least. Being comfy from the start. Its an sort of freeze response towards the unknown. DMSI does gear me towards being comfortable in the uncomfortable, basically shattering the notion of comfortzone.
Im being blatantly checked out. One girl, "Rox" was last time blatanly hitting on me. She kept bringing up phallic fruits amidst of work, bumping constant into me. Steering the convo blatantly towards fucking. Bringing up words like "long", "hard" "deep" and getting off about it even. Makes me think about women being mentally stimulated as they get off from 50shades and the likings. Its one of my kinks aswell, to dominate them mentally so they turn fully submissive and become a puddle of cum, drooling and fully giving over. Its so fully natural to me. She even blurted out "I promised [name bf ]..." yet she kept going. Several women at work did mention me wearing calvin klein boxers and the whole setting turned out sexual. Electricity in the air with 3 women simultaneously. My ass was almost topic off the day. Not to say, "N" is fickle.
With, J, I brought up how I seemed to develop an shoulder injury. She begun to massage it and I felt all barrier burst. Today in yoga class, she kept involving me. Also when going deep, she started to lightly push my back a bit and this only strengthened the savageness. When kino is taking place, it all is a done deal. Not to say, I screen instantly. It was like a sniper moment and I selected instantly, or rather, my mind did through commenting "bang" as in banging/dtf, without needing their validation. Total selection procedure, owning their pussy.
What DMSI is steering me to is location. Like, making me aware of location when pulling/getting pulled. For some reason this is brought up and seems like a sticking point. In the past I had no problems escalating with women in the clubs. They came up to me basically. My mindset has been "fucking at her place/mine, whatever" especially on 3.1 it was clear to me. Yet, having scenarios of being out and banging on the spot? It causes some unease.
One I remember where several friends of my sister. One proposed sex back them under circumstances which is why I didnt close. She had the fantasy of having my sister watch. Lol. Other moments when out was instantly hooking up with 2 girls back them. In my late teens I had a girl basically stalking me and chasing me at work while I had my eyes on another girl. Other times when out and starting with cory skyy pre ASC, girls grinded up to me while giving me dtf eyes looking backwards to me. Their ass against mine. I was oblivious to this then. Totally out of form aswell, like being out for the fucking first time.
Internally things are being dealt with, HARD. Im really going to a place of women.closing me. Of having them jump my bones. My ddlg is resurfacing. At the gym Im unstoppable, going beastmode. My anxiety is way lower. My dreams are sexual and somewhat familiar at times, like waking places blend within dreams.
I like feminine sweet women with great bodies. NoLimit posted a link of the scaling of women, the 1/10 scale. In this link, the girls that are classified as nines are those I easily attract and move on to attracting. It caught me somewhat off guard. For me they seem...normal? Like I said, I move to a reality in which women will jump my bones. Like, sunbathing and 2 girls comin up and ending up banging them both, or them me. It crossed my mind without me steering to it, like a vision.
Im getting really sexual in my mind. Im naturally seductive in many ways. Like, my eyes and such. Im looking so handsome
Another thing that came up during weights, was status. Im somewhat turned off when thinking back to it, like, why do I need other people to have my status. Can go dark fast for me, like getting cold, serious amd agressive. Its basically an sort of bitterness towards people and some shit they pull off, fuck em. This came about when reading Dzemoo's sm3 journal.
Nowadays Im reframing automatically. Twisting words and toying with them. Shifting words in sentences and reading them wrong.
Also, last few days, game is coming up. When dropping it, attraction skyrockets, giving women full reign to seduce me. Its an thugwar at times, as its like "improving game" vs "natural/no game needed" will I allow DMSI to do its thing?
I have experienced the relief in this multiple times. Wherever Im griwing to, I will no longer think about it.
Im high status. High value. Attractive and sex in the flesh.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
