DMSI is making me MSI in ALL WAYS POSSIBLE.
Saw "N" today and she responded harder then before. Like literally following me, so close to me that I wanted to escalate amidst of work with her. I felt the "pull", like everything hightened and brakes fell off. Still, in my mind there was some held back.
With C yesterday, she was serving me like a king. She had her ex over aswell at her bday ( ya rly ) but she also acted submissive, playfull. Playfull pushed her a bit, showing off her body. I didnt give a fuck yet am feeling regret now. Open oppurtunity. When leaving her, I found myself thinking " leave them craving for more" my bodylanguage shifted to strong alpha and king. It was like nothing.
I also notice im perceiving myself as tall and big in presence, like literally towering above people in height.
Im way off today. Even tho N is massively more compliant, submissive and close with me, I have seething rage. Felt my inner game was off, weak frame. Eye contact also weak. I ran A this morning, and each cycle of the innet turmoil is more and more intense. I feel purposeless at times.
I despise 9 - 5 strongly. I flow constantly and those that try to slow me down can gtfo. I am my mission and create freedom everywhere, whenever I want, wherever I want
I want to grow in creating freedom, expand social circle, contacts and leads. Im destined to flow, build empires and generate wealth, being at high end parties and making business deals. I feel it flowing in my veins.
I feel something pass. I even am running another loop of A now because it became unbearable. I deal with the aftermath later. The whole escalation stuff with "N", which grows stronger and stronger was met with stiffness ( badum tss ) like my body felt like it was meeting heaviness. Stiff, in a partial cage.
I dont tolerate bs. No longer will I be holding back. No 9-5, no old paradisms, no fucking prisons. I have a strong hatred to being told what to do ( hybrid is lovely tho ) in the sense that value is taken and not given back. I will not be used. Im done fuelling other people agendas without having myself being benefitted from it. I will not waste my energy on those 'expectations' and being good. Its clashing already. I am well aware of my words for some reason now. Those that buy into this prison, this invisible prison will meet their worst enemy.
Gonna look into Myers brigg personalities. It probably will shed clarity in personality types as I feel my own clearing up and crystalize as well as being sculpted out. This again will be a tool, usefull to handle different personality types.
Saw "N" today and she responded harder then before. Like literally following me, so close to me that I wanted to escalate amidst of work with her. I felt the "pull", like everything hightened and brakes fell off. Still, in my mind there was some held back.
With C yesterday, she was serving me like a king. She had her ex over aswell at her bday ( ya rly ) but she also acted submissive, playfull. Playfull pushed her a bit, showing off her body. I didnt give a fuck yet am feeling regret now. Open oppurtunity. When leaving her, I found myself thinking " leave them craving for more" my bodylanguage shifted to strong alpha and king. It was like nothing.
I also notice im perceiving myself as tall and big in presence, like literally towering above people in height.
Im way off today. Even tho N is massively more compliant, submissive and close with me, I have seething rage. Felt my inner game was off, weak frame. Eye contact also weak. I ran A this morning, and each cycle of the innet turmoil is more and more intense. I feel purposeless at times.
I despise 9 - 5 strongly. I flow constantly and those that try to slow me down can gtfo. I am my mission and create freedom everywhere, whenever I want, wherever I want
I want to grow in creating freedom, expand social circle, contacts and leads. Im destined to flow, build empires and generate wealth, being at high end parties and making business deals. I feel it flowing in my veins.
I feel something pass. I even am running another loop of A now because it became unbearable. I deal with the aftermath later. The whole escalation stuff with "N", which grows stronger and stronger was met with stiffness ( badum tss ) like my body felt like it was meeting heaviness. Stiff, in a partial cage.
I dont tolerate bs. No longer will I be holding back. No 9-5, no old paradisms, no fucking prisons. I have a strong hatred to being told what to do ( hybrid is lovely tho ) in the sense that value is taken and not given back. I will not be used. Im done fuelling other people agendas without having myself being benefitted from it. I will not waste my energy on those 'expectations' and being good. Its clashing already. I am well aware of my words for some reason now. Those that buy into this prison, this invisible prison will meet their worst enemy.
Gonna look into Myers brigg personalities. It probably will shed clarity in personality types as I feel my own clearing up and crystalize as well as being sculpted out. This again will be a tool, usefull to handle different personality types.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
