Im having jelousy coming up, I knew this all along, but its something that needs to be adressed by DMSI. In some senses I feel regressing, yet at the same time, when coming out of this its getting golden.
Older woman, A, was all over me today, hanging around my neck, tits against me, it happens. With M, she is more sucking my presence up. With N, she seemd to be more distant in a way, yet engaging. Its onfusing and I dont know why. neediness/ IDK, my internal world feels being shredded apart now. Yet, she added me on Insta, and I feel DMSI somehow lining me up for her to respond, its undeniable. Weird ass behaviour is noticed by myself to myself. Like, avoidance behaviourand stuff.
To come back to myself, I feel like something massive is going on under the hood. Im having a slight headache. I connect easily with people, yet having some worries coming up.
The comments by women, about heat is reported multiple times "its hot in here" while Im not feeling a thing. Sexual talk is more and more popping up with people. Even N was somewhat stripping herself while being teased. I want her.
Edit: I also had a dream. Cant recall but it involved a girl who was very rebellious. Something was about it. My subc is busy.
Also: seeing glimpses of women worshipping me in a way yet its so so natural. As I work through stuff this result sets my body aflame. Im seeing so many cues now and parts. Lawd. Its total indifference yet also drive to merciless get it and execute. No excuses. Im plowing through. Damn bro. The indifference and feeling it in my dick. Sexual energy. Like women throwing themselves at me is fully natural and even common to where im heading and going.
Older woman, A, was all over me today, hanging around my neck, tits against me, it happens. With M, she is more sucking my presence up. With N, she seemd to be more distant in a way, yet engaging. Its onfusing and I dont know why. neediness/ IDK, my internal world feels being shredded apart now. Yet, she added me on Insta, and I feel DMSI somehow lining me up for her to respond, its undeniable. Weird ass behaviour is noticed by myself to myself. Like, avoidance behaviourand stuff.
To come back to myself, I feel like something massive is going on under the hood. Im having a slight headache. I connect easily with people, yet having some worries coming up.
The comments by women, about heat is reported multiple times "its hot in here" while Im not feeling a thing. Sexual talk is more and more popping up with people. Even N was somewhat stripping herself while being teased. I want her.
Edit: I also had a dream. Cant recall but it involved a girl who was very rebellious. Something was about it. My subc is busy.
Also: seeing glimpses of women worshipping me in a way yet its so so natural. As I work through stuff this result sets my body aflame. Im seeing so many cues now and parts. Lawd. Its total indifference yet also drive to merciless get it and execute. No excuses. Im plowing through. Damn bro. The indifference and feeling it in my dick. Sexual energy. Like women throwing themselves at me is fully natural and even common to where im heading and going.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
