08-18-2016, 01:49 PM
Well, I have thought a bit about whether to start a journal or even post stuff about my DMSI experience. I was hesitant because I am diagnosed with ASD. Although the symptoms are rather weak, and people cannot tell I have it unless I tell them, I have symptoms. Given the ASD issues, I wasn't sure whether my posting will contribute to the improvement due to the symptoms and my differences, I thought, well why the hell not? People with ASD deserves to get improvements, and hopefully my sharing my experiences, thoughts and feelings will help Shannon build something better.
Well, let's start with my symptoms or what I have been diagnosed with.
1. ADD, this was the one I was first diagnosed. (Back in 2007, when I was in high school, and when I was suicidal and depressed.) The tricky part was that a specialist I saw back in my country didn't think I had ADD when she first saw me. She first thought I had Asperger's (it's replaced with ASD, autism spectrum disorder nowadays). After the testing, she said that I had both.
2. ASD, the specialist in my country (Korea) was the first one to diagnose it. But because of my two conflicting testing result, I did another test back in 2013/2014 in the US and the doctor who performed the test told me that my testing result from Korea was pretty accurate. (At this time I even did QEEG testing) Well, I suppose I have these two symptoms.
3. Executive functioning disorder, this was the most recent one added by my current therapist/specialist in ASD. Basically, what it is is that I have tremendously more difficult time keeping up with the routine, and following the schedules.
4. Depression, Well I have had depressions, and the very last formal report (2013/2014) stated that I have recurring, sub-clinical to clinical level of depression. (There was a specific term for this, but I can't remember). Now.... Hmm. I don't think I have depression, as I am not really depressed, but there can be a very few moments of times when I can have emotional outburst. Though I wrote it as emotional outburst, I never express it outside, even if I am by myself. When I have the outburst, I would be emotionally upset or sad for reasons that I am too sure about. It happens rarely but it happens. When it happens, pretty much my half to an entire day is ruined because that drains my mental focus away. But I am usually (if not 100%) better by the next day. I think the emotional outburst has to do with ASD.
Well, let's start with my symptoms or what I have been diagnosed with.
1. ADD, this was the one I was first diagnosed. (Back in 2007, when I was in high school, and when I was suicidal and depressed.) The tricky part was that a specialist I saw back in my country didn't think I had ADD when she first saw me. She first thought I had Asperger's (it's replaced with ASD, autism spectrum disorder nowadays). After the testing, she said that I had both.
2. ASD, the specialist in my country (Korea) was the first one to diagnose it. But because of my two conflicting testing result, I did another test back in 2013/2014 in the US and the doctor who performed the test told me that my testing result from Korea was pretty accurate. (At this time I even did QEEG testing) Well, I suppose I have these two symptoms.
3. Executive functioning disorder, this was the most recent one added by my current therapist/specialist in ASD. Basically, what it is is that I have tremendously more difficult time keeping up with the routine, and following the schedules.
4. Depression, Well I have had depressions, and the very last formal report (2013/2014) stated that I have recurring, sub-clinical to clinical level of depression. (There was a specific term for this, but I can't remember). Now.... Hmm. I don't think I have depression, as I am not really depressed, but there can be a very few moments of times when I can have emotional outburst. Though I wrote it as emotional outburst, I never express it outside, even if I am by myself. When I have the outburst, I would be emotionally upset or sad for reasons that I am too sure about. It happens rarely but it happens. When it happens, pretty much my half to an entire day is ruined because that drains my mental focus away. But I am usually (if not 100%) better by the next day. I think the emotional outburst has to do with ASD.