01-24-2017, 08:06 PM
Shannon,
In terms of updates, the healing seems to be progressing and maybe winding down. I feel very little anger. However, I do still feel wary about interacting with women. Some days I don't want to interact with anyone. Perhaps I might say that even though the idea of sexual involvement with a woman is now appealing to me (for a few weeks it wasn't), but there aren't any women I'm interested in. It's very odd. It's not that I think none of them are good enough. It's more like none have given me a reason to be interested in them or take the initiative with them. They just aren't motivating for me. I don't know how else to describe it. It's a very odd experience.
I think I also had a few weeks that some men were acting like I was intruding on their territory. Like they saw me as a threat. They were also sneaky about it. Like watching me out of the corner of their eyes and following me as I shopped. Very odd. Never happened before.
In terms of updates, the healing seems to be progressing and maybe winding down. I feel very little anger. However, I do still feel wary about interacting with women. Some days I don't want to interact with anyone. Perhaps I might say that even though the idea of sexual involvement with a woman is now appealing to me (for a few weeks it wasn't), but there aren't any women I'm interested in. It's very odd. It's not that I think none of them are good enough. It's more like none have given me a reason to be interested in them or take the initiative with them. They just aren't motivating for me. I don't know how else to describe it. It's a very odd experience.
I think I also had a few weeks that some men were acting like I was intruding on their territory. Like they saw me as a threat. They were also sneaky about it. Like watching me out of the corner of their eyes and following me as I shopped. Very odd. Never happened before.