01-10-2017, 09:06 PM
Day off, resting up for work. One thing I will say I have noticed in addition of the stuff with girls been I've been talking about in journals. I've noticed my ability to sit back and let stuff slide form people is getting a lot weaker. In that if someone messes with me or dose something out of order, out of line. I just feel the urge to put them in there place right then and there. Most of the time I could control myself and be nice respectfully even if they are wrong or dumb or misguided etc. It's been these last few days in that if even I think someone disrespecting me or treating me bad especially in public and I have a really hard time keeping my self from flying off the handle and letting them know how I think about them and what there's doing. That happened Sunday and today where weak people were messing me and there's nothing to what they're saying they just trying to build themselves up at my expense. Like it's this guy I known for years he's super social got's all kinds of female friends, facebook friends a very talkative guy. One of the girls in our social circle has a thing for me. Everybody knows he knows it and he knows it. He just happens to be a higher rank in group in title only, kind of like a middle boss manager etc. If she looks at me or touches me, etc he totally affected by it. So much so he has to use every little thing he got to maintain control like he's the man, that's my girl. All he's got a silly title and some talking skills. I mean why should he even care about one girl when he's got 100's friends he could be talking to everywhere plus he's so social he easily approaches girls anytime he wants being he's very safe non threatening type of guy. All this and he's so insecure about some girl he likes that likes me. A girl a could careless whether it goes anywhere she technically has man, and he's some other guy no one ever sees him. I mean it's pretty clear she's having problems with her relationship so she's looking for options else where. In the past I've tried to be nice building bridges and making peace best I can. As I things continue with version b having a hard time controlling myself as far as letting far weaker people get over on me even in trying to make peace and get along. Thanks to Shannon's sub letting me start to really stand up for myself and put boundaries for people. We'll see where this goes.
