11-10-2016, 10:23 PM
Day 3 Update
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGH19_KjWY0
This will be my last update on this journal. I am still debating whether I am going to run V1 for another day or two, or not. Chances are I won't, I think I found a good end to wrap V1 on.
I saw that friend, took her out for a birthday dinner tonight. It was belated.
It was also extremely emotional. She had a lot to say apparently. A lot of things that she kept buried and never said before. Mainly about the disappointments she's had with me because I bailed on her as many times as I did over the past few years. She wasn't wrong either. I broke a lot of plans with her due to work issues. I never realized that she cared so much, but good god did she give me an earful.
I owe her a story. I told her a long time ago I would write a story for her as a birthday present for this year.
All in all, my interactions with her tonight were very different than any other time. The other thing I realized now, looking back at the night, is that she said my name more times tonight than she has in the last 6 years that we've known each other.
Considering her reactions tonight, I am almost certain that she has strong feelings for me.
I found myself on the way home asking myself if I want to get into another relationship again or not. I don't know anymore. And right at this moment it isn't really important. I just need some sleep.
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGH19_KjWY0
This will be my last update on this journal. I am still debating whether I am going to run V1 for another day or two, or not. Chances are I won't, I think I found a good end to wrap V1 on.
I saw that friend, took her out for a birthday dinner tonight. It was belated.
It was also extremely emotional. She had a lot to say apparently. A lot of things that she kept buried and never said before. Mainly about the disappointments she's had with me because I bailed on her as many times as I did over the past few years. She wasn't wrong either. I broke a lot of plans with her due to work issues. I never realized that she cared so much, but good god did she give me an earful.
I owe her a story. I told her a long time ago I would write a story for her as a birthday present for this year.
All in all, my interactions with her tonight were very different than any other time. The other thing I realized now, looking back at the night, is that she said my name more times tonight than she has in the last 6 years that we've known each other.
Considering her reactions tonight, I am almost certain that she has strong feelings for me.
I found myself on the way home asking myself if I want to get into another relationship again or not. I don't know anymore. And right at this moment it isn't really important. I just need some sleep.
